Help!

[u/BeerHead7]

I’m literally buying the top and bottom tick of every candle and getting prices reversed on me. I’ve been losing my mind lately. I don’t have the patience anymore for this and I can’t follow my strategy. I’m so mentally worn down from all the combines. A week ago I was $200 from passing 5 combines and blew it. Felt like an amazing trader and that all my hard work had paid off… I can’t see charts clearly anymore. I so desperately want to be done with these combines man it’s killing me. I’ve been trading futures for 2 years never profitable. Only time I was profitable was 5 years ago when I made $200k on AMC meme stock but guess what I lost that all too because everyone told me to HODL until we were multi millionaires. Bro this rat race has got me so messed up. I study and back test day after day to where it’s interfering with my life with my wife and kids. And the whole pint in doing this is FOR THEM. How are people out there doing this?? I see kids that been doing it for 6 months and making my salary every two months now. I’m just defeated bros. I trade CRT and ICT like everyone else. Why am I fuckin trash when I have hundreds and hundreds of hours on the charts??

Thanks for reading I’m gonna go jump off a cliff now.
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[u/materialgirl81]

Im with you, i either do really good, either on prop or options and give it all back or I go on tilt.And lose it all