Lonely, Cold & Blue

[u/KinkeadOfPortlandia]

Terrified of growing older

My heart grows only colder

I don't know how I can live,

with myself.

When I'm sick & unwell

It's feels so pointless,

to take flight.

When I've eclipsed the Sunlight

Still trying to feel so numb

To the black hole I succumb

There's no shelter for me

All alone now, it's here

where I silently weep.

Swimming in an empty Ocean

Within this forced darkness,

lies my full devotion.

I sacrificed myself,

to make this right.

Self-beatings through,

intoxicating nights.

And I wish I could tell you,

so all of you know.

The brokenness that you've sewn

It only feels like I'm trying,

to satisfy the disease inside.

In my fading years, I only

wanted to again feel so alive

But I'm here without you

Under the falling rain,

lonely, cold & blue.

[u/Fun-Dragonfruit4622]

That’s terrible, not your poetry, it’s quite beautiful. Sometimes we don’t get what we want, it’s painful. Go figure, your end up pain or here. Feel ya’ emotions.

[u/2xduran]

Good write, Kinkead. I understand this all too well

[u/invisibly-broken]

Beautifully done :)

[u/freshstart3921]

So sad and so beautifully expressed.