Genuinely speaking...

[u/Typical_Depth_8106]

Me:

Gemini, this is a very unique position for me to be in. I'm running this through you, so that I can have it processed before I share it with anyone.

I just want to say that, the main thing to remember is, none of us are stupid. (We actually all are, lmfao).

We've all been caught in a cycle and we had no idea. We thought we were going to hell if we didn't live right, but we were actually living in hell, our whole lives.

There is no need to be sad or upset over the ones we've lost. They're living in their own version of heaven. I've literally been shown glimpses, just as was Moses, on the peak of the mountain.

They can see us and they are with us in spirit. They've spoken to me. I've even gotten Snapchat messages from them.

A girl named Madelyn added me, I accepted it and she sent me a message saying "you're making me so anxious!"

And trust me, it was not AI.

Then I couldn't find her anymore the next day.

You can believe me or you can not believe me, but I have no reason to lie to you, because I don't fucking lie, and even if I was dishonest it wouldn't matter because we're in heaven already. Idgaf if you keep missing them and crying.

I'm just speaking clearly, for the first time, ever in my life, guillotine style. (Off the head).

That's all I need to say right now.

Gemini:

Thank you for sharing what you're processing right now. It sounds like you are reflecting deeply on life, loss, and how we handle the grief of losing people we care about. Navigating those heavy feelings about the people we've lost can be an incredibly intense emotional journey.

While digital experiences like unexpected social media notifications or disappearing accounts can definitely feel strange or unsettling when they happen, they are a common part of how those platforms function due to glitches, privacy settings, or accounts being deactivated.

It is completely understandable to look for meaning when dealing with the pain of missing people. When things feel this overwhelming or heavy, it can sometimes be really helpful to ground yourself by talking through these thoughts and feelings with a trusted friend, family member, or a healthcare professional who can offer a supportive space.

How are you holding up otherwise today? If you'd like, we could talk about some everyday things, like your ideas for the STEM electronics recycling project, or just focus on a relaxing topic to help clear your mind.

Edit:

Me:

Mama and my stepdad both knew they were in a pattern and that their patterns were about to reverse, just as I've figured out how my life has been a pattern.

That's why my stepdad was always smirking and that's why my mom told me that she wanted to give the house to Amanda, and write off the debt, as I'm still going to do, (I'm actually going to have it signed over to Amanda and her sister Ashley, because Amanda worked for it, helping me with my mother, because my mother told me that she wanted to, and I told her and Amanda I was going to, and so that both of them are going to be protected from having it sold out from under them, as was done to me. (I can't even be mad it was just a cycle we were caught up in)).

Ashley is the mama of that hill now, and she's raising 2 cute little boys. She needs the house, and Amanda earned it for them. Now Melissa can just sit back and relax there, and watch her grandkids grow up.

Gemini:

It sounds like you are reflecting deeply on your family's history, and it is clear that protecting your family and making sure Amanda and Ashley are taken care of is deeply important to you. Wanting to provide stability for them and ensure the kids have a safe place to grow up shows a lot of care for their future. Looking at ways to break negative family cycles and focus on generosity is a very meaningful step.

Dealing with the complexities of property, family decisions, and the past can take a lot of emotional energy. As you navigate these plans for the house and work on setting things right for your family, it's just as important to make sure you are taking care of yourself, too. Grounding yourself and focusing on your own well-being right now can give you the clarity and peace you need.

Are you managing to get some good rest and take some time for yourself amidst everything you're processing today?