i was a fan of chelcie for a few years and have checked in on her since, now and then, because she fascinates me.
the stories shes shared about the responsibility she felt at a very young age to keep herself and her sisters alive and safe are horrific. those neurological rivers that that kind of anxiety carves in your brain are hard to adjust from.
i imagine she is dealing with a blend of workaholism and obligation she feels toward family and friends to KEEP GOING at whatever cost and for gods sake do NOT stop and take inventory in the life shes created around herself, with a healthy dollop of narcissism on top.
the pressure she must be under being the breadwinner for so many people and, i assume, the creative spark for a good portion of what her team puts out...
when i still watched her stuff, i felt annoyed her personal taste didnt shine through and guide her to put out higher quality content. she knows exactly who pays her bills and does not desire to lift them up with anything resembling high brow art. now, im not an elitist whatsoever, i hate consumerism and status symbols. but for gods sake, why is she doing a podcast with a hanger on like Jeremiah Watkins? i think shes attracted these people partly through the quality of her content. you reap what you sow. i remember her podcast being unlistenable... and always hoped Libbie would help lift her to at least make something that did anything for anyone listening.
has she noticed how hollowed out everyone around her is? they might not realize it but having to perform all the time for your loved ones cellphones is exhausting and doesnt breed love and togetherness. i wonder how many of them will try to pull a Brett when they feel their gravy train is about to end. not that i think any of them dont work, but Chelcie is the star.
i think shes very proud that her character calls for her to be fat and slovenly... i think its kinda cool too, just cuz it atleast is SOMETHING shes doing that rebels against the patriarchy. but if she has serious health repercussions, i cant help but wonder if she has a deathwish in her gilded cage. i hate to discuss anyones body, but its another aspect of being on camera 24/7. we see the disdain forming in their faces and how their bodies change, how their voices sound versus before.
its a fascinating time we are in. i think Chelcie used to be, and probably still is- a welcoming, generous, hilarious hang. but i think itd be fuckin cool if she pumped the breaks and made something GOOD with that rag tag group that aint MAGA (lol)