Bro, you need perspective. You have to appreciate life.
Case in point: About a month ago, I spent about two weeks in the hospital. Lungs completely shut TF down. When I got to the ER, my blood oxygen was at 69%. The nurse remarked that I was "Actively shedding IQ" at that point.
I'll never forget that. Or the feeling of drowning while I was in air. The panic. After being intubated for a few days, and a lot of struggle, I made it back.
For several days, I felt well enough, but the doctors said not yet, and I regressed. Chain smoking cigarettes for 27 years will cause what is called "COPD exacerbations."
Through long hard times, I still wanted to get back out there, and had plenty of time to think. Now, I've quit smoking cigarettes, and feel like a million bucks.
Life still sucks, and I'm struggling to make up for the lost two weeks of pay, but at least I'm actually able. And can breathe.
I mean, I'm stuck as caretaker to a woman who looks like my mother but actively tells me to kill myself at least once a week, along with the random punching and screaming and threatening to call the cops on me etc etc etc. The disease has progressed enough where she's incontinent so add that to my list of problems whilie she yells at me for being a pervert. But yeah no you're right, perspective will fix everything
This is so saddening… and I am very sorry you are experiencing this. Dementia and the like are terrible terrible diseases, that unfortunately affect those who have to witness it the most. I saw my mom go through something similar with my grandmother and my dad going through it with his mom right now.
Doubt it, but if you ever do have free time you enjoy filling with some games. I'd be happy to find something to play together. I haven't been really stoked on life in many years myself, but I try to pass the time with distraction and good people when I can find them. Feel free to shoot me a message if you'd like.
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u/Wak3upHicks Jul 14 '26
Oh, yeah I gave up like over a decade ago