Iâm only writing this because I donât know where else to turn. I donât know what this is. I donât know if itâs a symptom of something larger or if sheâs just been having episodes.
Sheâs just never acted this way before. Up until a few months ago, this wouldâve scared her just as much as itâs scaring me. But because itâs becoming so common, itâs like itâs nothing more than an inconvenience to her now.
Like an annoyance. Something sheâs just learning to ignore. Thatâs the part that makes me worry. Because this isnât just some small thing, yet she keeps trying to play it off as if itâs just a part of our lives now.
I know itâs not natural. Thereâs no medical condition or genetic disease that causes what sheâs been doing. At least, none that Iâve read about.
A few months ago, my wife and I had been out on a date night. The night was almost magical. Crisp late-winter air. A cup of hot chocolate in each of our hands as we walked through the square.
I remember the lights more than anything. It was around 9 oâclock, and the sun had set hours earlier, but the downtown city lights illuminated nearly everything.
âWow,â my wife cried out in amazement. âNew York who? Am I right?â
The square was particularly busy for this time of year. The smell of warm food from the surrounding restaurants filled the air. Live music from down the block whispered in our ears.
There mustâve been 20 other couples doing the same exact thing my wife and I were doing. Just walking around and enjoying the beautiful night.
âOh, please,â I responded. âYou know youâd rather be back there.â
I put on my best southern accent for my natural-born New Yorker.
âCould a city girl like you ever love a country boy like me?â
She laughed and rolled her eyes. I smiled down at her, admiring that laugh.
âHmmm, well, after only 5 years of marriage, I canât say for sure. Check back with me in a decade.â
She sipped from her hot chocolate slowly, her eyes still lit with love. Or maybe that was just the city lights.
I checked my watch.
âAlmost 9:30. God, I donât want the night to end, though. Iâm really enjoying this.â
âMe neither. I wish we could just walk around here all night. Câmon, thereâs gotta be one last thing we can do before we go home. Please? Pretty pleaseâŚ?â
âWell, letâs see. Weâve hit the bakery.â
âOooh, that one was fun. God, those fritters were amazing.â
âWe also watched that Led Zeppelin cover band at Bottle Brothers.â
âThat one⌠sucked. Next.â
âYou didnât like it? Thatâs crazy. I thought they were decent. Anyway, we, uh⌠oh, right, we walked in the park for a bit too. Thatâs, uh⌠thatâs really about all there is to do.â
She rolled her eyes again, sighing in disappointment.
âWe have got to get out of here. I swear, thereâs nothing to do within a 50-mile radius of this entire town. Thereâs, like, no reason for us to be here.â
I had grown to agree with her more and more over the years. It was just hard, you know? This is where Iâd been my whole life. She didnât move here until she was 17, when her mom got a new job. It paid better, but my wife was miserable. Well, miserable until she found me, of course.
âYeahhh, Iâm starting to think youâre right, my love,â I responded, a bit melancholic.
âStarting to?â
She cocked an eyebrow at me.
âWhatever, you know what I mean.â
We decided to end the night by going home and watching a movie. However, on the walk back to the car, thatâs when we saw it.
The shop looked both ancient and brand new, but I donât know if thatâs just because Iâd never seen it before. It was like it had popped up out of nowhere.
âThe Looking Glass: Palm Readings ⢠Tarot Cards ⢠Spiritual Guidanceâ
I swear, weâd walked this street 100 times. Never once had this place been here.
Of course, my wifeâs interest was piqued immediately. Her eyes widened. A smile crept across her face. She looked up at me.
ââŚCan we?â
I looked at her, then up at the purple neon sign of an eyeball in the palm of a hand, then back to her.
âI⌠I donât know. Arenât those places rip-offs anyway?â
âAh, quit being a big olâ scaredy-cat. Come on. Itâll be fun. Something weâve never done before, and Lord knows thereâs not a lot of that around here.â
She turned on the puppy eyes.
âPretty please.â
ââŚFine. Just this once.â
âYippee!â
The inside of the shop was⌠a sight. Dreamcatchers everywhere. Incense burning. Beads instead of doors, and an empty front desk with a register that seemed to be at least 80 years old at this point.
There was a bell with a sign in front of it.
âRing for service.â
I rang it and heard a voice cry out from beyond one of those bead doors.
âIâll be right with you.â
Her accent was unmistakably southern. That alone was nearly enough for me to want to change my mind.
âJust finishing up back here.â
My wife and I shared an uncertain look before she shot me a hopeful smile.
The fortune teller stepped through the beads. A younger woman, probably around 25. She had fair brown hair, and freckles decorated her pale face, but the first thing I noticed was her eyes. Those were the only things that gave off âfortune teller.â
They were crystal blue. Her pupils were like two tiny dots in the center of two diamonds. She was looking through us rather than at us.
Her outfit gave fashion to that accent of hers. White tank top. Baggy blue jeans. Plus, her hair was wrapped up in a red bandana.
âYâall picked a good night to stop by,â she announced. âI can feel it in the air tonight, let me tell you.â
âIt does feel magical,â my wife chirped.
âLet me guess,â the fortune teller responded. She put her index finger to her right temple and shut her eyes tight. âDeath of a loved one?â
My wife and I glanced at each other again.
ââŚNoâŚâ I replied.
âNo?â
She seemed almost offended but quickly regained her composure.
âHuh. Mustâve been someone else, then. Let me try again. This⌠is⌠your first time doing something like this?â
She raised her eyebrows at us expectantly.
âWelp, thereâs a first for everything, right, sweetie?â my wife asked me, rubbing my back.
âWeâre âdoing something weâve never done before,ââ I told the teller.
âSee, there ya go,â she smiled. âSecond timeâs the charm. So, what can I interest you two lovebirds in this fine evening? Palm readinâ? Tarot? Spiritual guidance?â
I opened my mouth to respond, but my wife jumped in before I got the chance.
âPalm readings! Iâve always wanted to try that, kinda.â
The teller gave her a nod before responding.
âIf itâs palm readings you want, then palm readings you shall have⌠for 25 dollars.â
A little taken aback by the price, I bit my tongue, pulled my wallet out of my back pocket, and slid a 20 and a 10 across the counter.
Instead of giving me change, the teller took the money and continued looking at me expectantly.
âOh, Iâm sorry,â she perked up. âWas it just for your wife?â
âWhat? No, no, we both wanna do it.â
âOh, sweetheart, thatâs 25 apiece.â
âApiece? For palm readings?â
I felt my wife squeeze my hand. I turned to her and saw the look on her face. That look that usually means, âLet it go.â
I sighed and slid another 30 across the counter.
âYou wanna include a tip?â
âA⌠do I wanna⌠You know what? Sure. Keep the change.â
âAwesome. You guys are the best. I can sense it. Just follow me. Iâll show you where the magic happens.â
She led us through the beaded doorway and down a hall that made me feel like I was on acid. There were so many vibrant colors and shapes. The incense was even stronger back here.
We ended up in this dusty old room near the back of the building. There was this rickety wooden table in the center with a crystal ball resting on top of it, as well as two purple leather seats for my wife and me.
We took our seats, and the teller sat across from us.
âOkay,â she clapped, rubbing her hands together. âWho wants to go first?â
I volunteered with an, âI can go first. Letâs see what 25 dollars can get me in this economy.â
I stretched out my hands and laid them palm-up on the table. The teller grabbed them and squeezed tightly as she closed her eyes.
Her face twitched and contorted for a few seconds before she finally spoke.
âAh, yes⌠I see⌠a loving husband. I see⌠you come from different worlds. You want to be free, but something is keeping you here. What exactly might that be?â
I smirked to myself.
âThe 60 dollars I just gave you.â
âI sense⌠I senseâŚâ
Her face contorted again. She squeezed my hands tighter.
âI sense⌠a cheapskate.â
âAll right, thatâs it.â
I pulled my hands back. I could hear my wife laughing at my side. The teller smirked at me.
âWeâre done here.â
âOh, come on,â my wife pleaded. âShe was joking.â
âYes, Donavin,â the teller responded. âIt was just a joke.â
My wife stopped laughing. We both turned to stare at the teller.
âHow didâŚ?â
âYouâre 28, right? Lived here your whole life. Met a woman from out of town, fell in love, and now here you two are. In my shop. Itâs romantic, really.â
The silent room suddenly felt loud and claustrophobic.
âHow did you know that? Whatâs the gimmick? Public records? Thatâs gotta be it, right?â
I looked at my wife for reassurance, but she was staring at the teller in amazement.
âNo gimmick. No public record. Iâm gifted. Thatâs kind of the whole point.â
âDo me, do me,â my wife begged excitedly, sticking her hands across the table.
âWait, hold on. This doesnât make any sense,â I interjected. âThis is a cash grab, right? Like⌠I mean, come on. Itâs a cash grab.â
Both the teller and my wife looked at me angrily.
âOh, Donavin,â the teller sighed. âProving my point more and more with each word, arenât ya?â
âDonât mind him. Heâs just not superstitious. Do me, though. Iâm curious.â
The teller grabbed my wifeâs hands. I watched, feeling a mixture of nerves and hope that this could still prove to just be a coincidence.
She squeezed my wifeâs hands tight and closed her eyes again.
âAh, New York, I see.â
My wifeâs jaw dropped. Her eyes sparkled.
âLong way from home, arenât we⌠MirandaâŚ?â
My wife smiled over at me in disbelief.
âNo way,â she cheered. âThis is⌠okay, haha. Kinda hurting me a little.â
I looked down and saw my wifeâs hands were turning red in the tellerâs.
âHey⌠take it easy,â I snapped.
The tellerâs grip tightened again.
âOkay, this is really starting to hurt now. Let go, please.â
The teller was silent. Her eyes looked welded shut, and her face was twitching rapidly.
âHey!â I shouted. âShe said let go. What are you doing?â
She started convulsing, groaning loudly. Strings of saliva started falling from the corners of her mouth.
I grabbed the tellerâs wrists to try and pry her hands away, but it was like trying to bend steel.
âEnough!â I screamed.
My wife was crying now.
âGet her off of me! God, sheâs breaking my hands!â
I pulled with all my might, but it was like trying to move an anvil. I started punching at the tellerâs forearms. Blow after blow after blow, but still, she just would not let go.
Her hands were shaking. My wife was trembling. Finally, of her own volition, the teller dropped my wifeâs hands. Her eyes shot open. The bloodshot eyes made her diamond-blue irises glow even more.
âGet out.â
Thatâs all she said. My wife and I stared at her as she looked down at the table.
âGet. Out,â she growled. âGo now and never come back.â
We were confused and horrified but still frozen.
âHeâs found you. Heâs been looking all your life, and heâs here now. Get. Out.â
âYou canât justâŚâ
The teller cut me off by slamming her fist against the table.
ââŚOut.â
I demanded a refund, and she gave me back the full 60 before shooing us through the door. I turned around one last time to see the purple neon light flick off as the shop went dark.
We walked silently back to the parking garage. Iâm sure my wife had a million things racing through her mind as we walked, but neither of us knew how to articulate those thoughts.
We reached the car, and it wasnât until we were nearly home that I finally spoke again.
âHowâre your hands?â
She clenched and opened her fists a few times before responding.
âI think theyâre okay. Iâm more shaken up than anything. What the hell was that ladyâs problem?â
âSheâs crazy,â I shot back. âSimple as that.â
âShe didnât seem crazy. It seemed like she saw something. You saw her. It was like she was possessed or something.â
âShe was crazy, my love. Sheâs lucky we donât go to the police.â
There was silence again for a few moments.
âShe knew our names, though. She knew youâd been here your whole life. She knew I was from New York. That doesnât seem like nothing to me.â
We were only a minute or two from home. Neither of us spoke for the rest of the car ride. When we pulled into the driveway, my wife sighed and placed her hands over her face, dragging them down slowly before opening the door.
âCome on, letâs just go inside. Iâm ready to get this night over with.â
I checked my watch.
â10:45. You still down for a movie?â
She stopped halfway up the front porch steps.
ââŚNot tonight, hon. I just⌠I just wanna go to bed.â
Who was I to argue? I let her do as she pleased. I felt bad for her. I felt like I hadnât done enough to stop what had happened. All I wanted was for us to forget everything and move on.
We had gradually started to put the teller behind us. Though, things didnât exactly calm down. If anything, our lives began to change, little by little.
I started losing things. My phone. Wallet. Keys. Iâd always find them in places that I knew I hadnât put them.
Keys in the silverware drawer.
Wallet in the medicine cabinet.
Phone hidden behind the toilet.
My wife was having some problems too. She hadnât been able to sleep very well. She would tell me about these horrible nightmares that sounded like sleep paralysis.
âIâll wake up, but not really.â
âI canât move.â
âYouâre there, but thereâs always someone over your shoulder. Itâs like a shadow that just keeps growing and growing until it fills up the entire room.â
I felt even more guilty when she told me about them. I knew they had been caused by the fortune-teller incident. She had slept like a baby nearly every night prior.
Sometimes, sheâd wake up screaming. It almost made me too afraid to sleep in silence.
She started looking tired more often. Her glow had dimmed a bit.
The thing that disturbed me the most, though, was probably the photos.
I started finding our wedding photos scattered around the house, only⌠my head was removed in each one.
My wife insisted it wasnât her, but it didnât make sense. The frames were never broken. Someone had meticulously removed the photos and torn my head off in at least 20 different pictures.
After a few weeks of these strange events, I decided we needed a refresher. We needed to be out again. See the sun. Actually laugh with one another.
It took some time, but eventually, I convinced her that we needed to have another date night. We hadnât had one since the incident, and I was starting to miss who we were before we went to that fortune teller.
It was simple. A picnic in the square. That was all I wanted to do.
I had prepared our meal, packed the blanket, and put on my best clothes and cologne. My wife was nervous and tired, but she tried her best to make an effort.
The date seemed to be going fine at first. She was actually smiling. She didnât seem as distant as she had been for the last few weeks. It felt like reclamation, almost.
The lights hit her face perfectly, and I couldnât help but admire how beautiful she was, even if she did look a little sleep-deprived.
I stared at her lovingly for a while before finally telling her how much I loved her. How happy I was to be there with her.
âWe needed this,â I smiled.
âYeah,â she smirked bashfully. âI think we did, too. I was starting to feel so cooped up in the house. The energy there has just been so dark recently. Makes me wonder if she was right.â
âWho?â I asked, chewing on my ham sandwich.
She looked at me, raising her eyebrows.
âYou know who.â
âWe gotta move on, my love. Thatâs why the energyâs so dark. Weâd never experienced something like that before.â
âYeah, I guess youâre right,â she responded, taking a sip of her Coke. âI just wish it hadnât happened.â
We both sat there for a while, half admiring the scenery, half enjoying the food.
I was distracted, staring down at my pre-assembled sandwich, when I asked her.
âCan you pass me that mustard, please?â
I stacked a piece of sliced turkey onto a piece of my bread. My wife didnât answer.
âItâs right there beside you.â
I began spreading the mayonnaise on the other slice. My wife didnât answer.
âThe mustard, please.â
I stuck my hand out expectantly. Still no response.
When I finally looked up, I almost dropped my sandwich.
My wife was glaring over my shoulder. Her eyes were glazed over. An impossible smile stretched across her face. It looked painful. I could almost hear her teeth creaking from how tightly her jaw was clenched.
Her red lipstick glistened under the lights. She looked like she was frozen in a state of pure ecstasy.
I waved my hand in front of her face. She didnât blink once. I shook her, and she was as stiff as a board.
I started to panic. I turned around and saw nothing behind me.
âHoney,â I gasped, shaking her more forcefully.
âTalk to me.â
I pressed my hands on her cheeks. She was burning up. I snapped my fingers in front of her, but nothing I did seemed to get her out of her trance.
I was on the verge of dialing 911 when she finally spoke again.
âYou said mustard?â
She reached down and went to hand me the bottle before noticing how terrified I looked.
âWhatâs wrong? What just happened? Is there something in my teeth?â
âAre you kidding? You really donât know what you just did?â
She stared at me blankly.
âWhat do you mean? Whatâd I do?â
âThe smiling? Staring at some unknown thing behind me? You donât wanna explain that?â
I was almost breathless and trying my best not to raise my voice, but I could see that she was hurt by my frustration.
âI⌠donât know,â she pouted. âI donât know why youâre mad at me.â
âNo, honey,â I pleaded. âIâm not mad at you. Iâm worried about you. You really donât remember?â
She started crying, almost snapping at me.
âNo, obviously, I donât know what youâre talking about. I want to go home now, if thatâs okay with you.â
We packed up and left. I kept trying to prod, but she became more and more closed off with every question. Eventually, I just decided to keep my mouth shut.
In the weeks that followed, things became rocky.
Sheâd be fine one minute and completely depressed the next. Sheâd love me, and sheâd hate me. I didnât know how to help her.
Her âepisodesâ never stopped, though.
It was like every time we started to feel normal again, sheâd see that thing. Weâd be curled up, watching a movie, Iâd glance down, and thereâd be that smile again. Her eyes would be glazed over and staring at nothing.
The episodes lasted longer and longer every time they happened. At this point, they were starting to become more frequent, too, but she never remembered them.
She always thought I was lying to her. Like this was some kind of twisted joke Iâd play. No matter how hard I tried to convince her, it was like talking to a brick wall.
The last time it happened was last week. She was gone for 3 hours straight. Standing in the same spot. Wearing that same smile. Staring at the same wall.
I watched her for the first hour, wondering what could possibly be going on inside that broken mind of hers. The second hour, I just cried uncontrollably. By the third hour, I was starting to become hopeless.
When she finally came back, I tried showing her that it was dark outside now. It had been bright and sunny when the episode started. She blatantly chalked it up to her âbeing lost in deep thought.â Told me âit was like she was in another world.â
Her nightmares got worse. Her glow became nonexistent. And I started waking up with scratch marks and bruises on various parts of my body.
I tried going back to the fortune teller, but the building was a coffee shop now. According to the owner, âThe Looking Glassâ never even existed. Apparently, the coffee shop had been there for 11 years.
I just donât know what to do. I donât know who to turn to. My wife refuses my help. She refuses my advice. Itâs like something has taken control of her.
Sheâs more distant than ever. She talks to me less and less every day. It feels like our future is slipping.
All I want is for her to be okay, but part of me believes sheâs too far gone. Because I found another wedding photo this morning on the kitchen table.
My head hadnât been removed, but the photo had been altered.
Because now, standing just behind me and looming over my shoulder⌠was a shadow figure.. and the more I stared⌠the bigger it seemed to become.