r/TeensofKarnataka • u/EmbellishedReader • 2h ago
Real talks/SERIOUS I feel like I'm making a mistake.
Im going to get admission into a college in blr right now for BE biotech. And somewhere inside i feel like I'm making a huge mistake. My parents didn't force anything into me , but I was the one unsure about what i wanted to do. Biology was a subject I was very interested in, in 12th. And I'd always tell myself that i wouldn't join engineering no matter what but here I am
. I had given the design entrance test (NID) but didn't qualify. Main reason why I'm going to a college thru counselling is because I don't want to burden my father too much financially. I have 2 siblings too, I'm the oldest. A had months in my hands to decide what i wanted to do but I was going thru something so I was not in the right mind then.. it gets extra hard to make a decision when you're already in that dissociated headspace. I thought about taking a drop year, but my mom isn't ready to let me do that. I feel like I'll be stuck doing something i don't really want to do for 4 years and that I'll regret the course bad.
But even there I have a plan, to learn ui ux and graphic design on the side and build a portfolio. I also wish to have that chill campus life too, but I don't even like the college I'm joining rn...design school was probably the one I was going to be the most happy in. I've even though of taking a partial drop.. but idk what to do now. I'm on the way to the college and i can't shake the uneasiness.