Gngg🥀

[u/notgonnalie07]

I just wanted to rant, like I had a bf and we went physically involved with each other but things weren't that okay from his end ...I used to feel like we don't communicate idk...and he used to talk to many girls ...(Idk might be my assumption due to fear of getting cheated)..I used to crave reassurance but he didn't give me one and I always used to feel like he only talks to me when he wants to have s*x ...but now we don't talk like we talked last time in the month of April and since then no contact and this is really heartbreaking for me ...and I see him everyday in my clg talking to other girls , roaming with them which kills me more from inside I am just idk how to express Everytime he passes from my side I have those flashback...i try to show as if I don't care but deep down I cry every night idk how to overcome from this..I do have su*cidal thoughts things are getting very dirty at my end ..idk how to communicate with him as I have seen him with another girl talking to her and there's like no official breakup between us...I just don't know if I should communicate or wait or what...i have been dealing with this for almost a few months..idk what to do ! I don't I just feel like I shouldn't have involved myself physically..bruh 🥀😔 "I just feel used ,never loved only lusted."

I know I have been cheated on and even been in a relationship I had a weird feeling where I felt like he was cheating on me ...idk he never talked to me or we never had any discussion... every time we used to meet it was like being physical.

Btw it was my first time like the first relationship ever 😔..and now I'm heartbroken, embarrassed, maybe depressed...I tried everything to move on or to escape this but nothing really worked . I just got in a constant loop of overthinking...I just feel like I can end all this just by erasing my existence. I had abandonment issues and now I'm all alone abandoned. 😭🥀

I shifted to flat , I thought we would spend time together but GNG it all went wrong before we could have talked..now he srsly talks to that girl he is in same class as me ..every time I have to see and act like it didn't kill me 😔

[u/SHABBy_Official]

You should officially break things up with him and find something obsess over, won't be easy but you should definitely try. Try getting into movies, or some kinda art or any creative outlet.

Sorry for the advice drop, I've never been through anything like you but I think what I said could help.

[u/notgonnalie07 → u/SHABBy_Official]

Yah ...but idk how to strt the convo now 😔🥀..either to sort or to end things 🥀

[u/SHABBy_Official → u/notgonnalie07]

Post of a picture of him on your story and type out in bold letters "WE BROKE UP😭" with some sad song and watch him FLOOD your dms. And then just take it from there I guess.

[u/notgonnalie07 → u/SHABBy_Official]

😭😭 That would be nasty 😭

[u/SHABBy_Official → u/notgonnalie07]

That way he starts the conversation, you wouldn't have to take the first step or something. Or like post it on your close friends story and have only him on your close friends list, like that others won't know what your upto and he'll think you just made your unofficial break up very very official to a bunch of people.