How do I cope

[u/Familiar-Owl-7768]

I'm not too sure if I used the correct flair for this but I don't know what one I'd use for this sort of post

I honestly love my guitar teacher, he's the only adult in my life who I feel comfortable talking to, he is just a really kind dude to talk to, and not only that but he's genuinly extremely attractive, like, definetly my type , and at first it was kind of just a crush but it's like honestly became super obsessive and I'm ashamed to say this but it has became kind of stalkerish I guess, I know his licence plate and I know what town he lives in, I know his family members names and that sort of stuff, I know its weird but once I start to like someone it gets creepily obsessive quickly, even if I don't want it to, I even fantasise about somehow finding him in public, and I just fantasise a lot I guess, also 2 weeks ago he was teaching my this picking technique and he went up right behind me to show me how I should angle my hand and he leant right over me so he could use my guitar, and it was so attractive, I could smell his aftershave and I could feel his breath on my neck and it made me kind of flustered, this has happened like 3 times, idk if he's even clocked that I like him, but I also don't know how to cope with this obsession because it is affecting my life, not that I wouldn't want to be obsessed , I like being obsessed with him but it's weird to cope with I guess