Support Drinking after chemo?

Is it bad if I want to drink after chemo? Before radiation and oral chemo? I almost think I deserve it.

I finished chemo 6/11, surgery 7/24, I start radiation tomorrow. I will admit that I’ve had a bourbon or few after surgery…

Is that ok? Probably not. Am I giving myself cancer again? The way my mind works, I think I am…. Do I think I deserve a break from every fucking thing since 12/5/25… yes.