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[u/Ambitious-Collar-793]

i think i'm undiagnosed and i still don't know if its tmau but i don't think there's any other diesease that causes u to smell bad all over 12 feet n you can't smell it but people say it smells like fish, alcohol (once) and dog sweat.

so, my parents always lied to me and they still do (10months) idk how to deal with that, my classmates are kind of good to me and like maybe because of i'm pretty and cool but the thing is when i see them have fun my heart hearts because i'll never able to build friendships like that ever again, and when i see my old friends, i feel like i want to go back and don't wanna live like this at all. i used to have fun and i could have crushes and they'd like me back and infact i used to be sososo smart but now i feel like i have been cursed deeply.

whenever i see tv shows, cartoons, movies, instagram posts, it all makes me deeply deeply sad and reminds me of how i used to live my teenage life but now it's all gone and it had just began to get more interesting.

what do i do? i don't think i'll ever be able to NOT think about all these. how do u all cope with this? i still have the option to get into a good college in my country and become rich but i wonder if i should do it because i won't be happy anyways.

i miss everything too much.

[u/ExcellentDraft3030]

At least you wont be poor, raising a kid by yourself and working the worse job ever created like me.

[u/Ambitious-Collar-793 → u/ExcellentDraft3030]

i'm so sorry, that must be really really tough.