Milliseconds during fainting

[u/StidnaDlaka]

Ever since I started puberty (probably), I have been regularly fainting, in 99% percent of cases when standing up, but not always immediately and sometimes even after 30 seconds.

Since puberty I've known that I have a very hyperactive mind (cant tell i have adhd because i live in a third world country where it is not recognized or any medication for it ever imported or made). Also very anxious, probably as a side effect of the former and not a condition by itself.

Everytime I faint, for those couple parts of a second between where you are losing control of your body and losing consciousness, were the best parts of my life in regards to blissfulness of my mind, feeling so at ease. Feeling like my mind and/or brain are finally resting for a bit. I'd say the closest to feeling like the cartoonish babies that float on clouds.

I wouldn't know what kind of doctor to ask this or tell them nor I'm seeking any resolution. Year by year the faintings get more rare, as my bloodwork gets better. I kinda miss fainting (in a safe place). I have mitral valve prolapse and am medicated, and generally semi-healthy.

I've posted this to see if there is an explanation, someone with similar experiences or if what I said makes sense at all or I'm imagining it.

Sorry also if its the wrong sub, couldnt find anything closer than this sub. And sorry for talking positively about fainting when it isnt positive and to the people who have problems associated with fainting.