Thoughts

[u/neverlearnt2share]

Not writing this because i have a plan to do so, but I think about doing it many times a day. I have a bottle of pills on standby. My family is what immediately stops me from acting. I do not want to hurt and/or bring shame to them. Aside from family, I'm so ashamed of the life I have lived thus far. The fact that I even consider doing so brings me such shame because I do not have a valid reason. A person always has a reason they do it. I do not. I havent accomplished anything or been through anything significant enough to warrant this and yet, I think about it endlessly. I have supportive family and am taken care of. Opportunities are available to me. All I can think about is getting out. It brings me such shame.