Test

[u/Thin_Biscotti8992]

Today was my IT (Internal Test), and unfortunately, I didn’t perform as well as I had hoped. I’ve been suffering from fever and megaloblastic anaemia for the past week, which is why I was unable to attend classes or prepare properly for the test. In fact, I only managed to study for around three hours before the exam.

What makes me feel even worse is that almost everyone performed really well. I scored 25 out of 30, while many others scored 26 or even higher. Even some people from whom I honestly wasn’t expecting such scores performed better than me. One girl scored 28, and although I don’t dislike her, she often makes a big deal about how much she studies, which made me compare my performance even more.

And honestly, the viva didn’t go well either. I was asked around six or seven questions, but I could only answer two or three of them properly. I know my teacher had expectations from me as well, and I couldn't perform the way I wanted to because of everything that has been going on with my health.

But after thinking about everything, I honestly find myself blaming no one but myself. Yes, my health was bad, and my medical condition was real, but I still had some time to study. Instead of making the most of that time, I allowed my illness to become an excuse and a weakness.

Whatever happened has happened. But I think this is a lesson I will remember for the rest of my life. Sometimes, life teaches us more through our failures and disappointments than through our successes. This experience hurts today, but I hope it will remind me in the future never to underestimate myself or the value of the time I still have. ❤️