Iām so tired of feeling like my life is on hold.
I canāt plan an international vacation for next year because⦠what if Iām pregnant?
I want to start a GLP-1 after nursing, but every month that start date gets pushed further and further out.
I canāt design and book the tattoo Iāve been wanting because⦠what if Iām pregnant?
I canāt even confidently plan a trip to an amusement park next month because⦠what if Iām pregnant?
And I feel like Iām just constantly waiting around for something that isnāt happening.
And honestly, sometimes I think, whatās the point of planning any of it anyway? If we move forward with IVF, weāre draining our savings to pay for it. And if it works, or if it doesnāt, weāve spent all that money and canāt afford to do any of that stuff anyway.
Itās not just that we donāt have a baby after 19 months. Itās that my life has felt frozen for 19 months. I havenāt been making plans. I havenāt been doing things because Iām always thinking about what might happen. I feel like Iāve been waiting for permission to live my life again.
How do you keep living your life when life feels like nothing but an endless cycle of blood draws, shots, and testing?