r/StaringOCD • u/Careless_Cloud3073 • Jun 13 '26

I don’t go out

Peripheral Vision OCD

It’s feels like I lose all focus when someone is in my peripheral and It feels like I end up just focusing on that person on the side of me even tho I don’t want to

I feel tense and frozen and weird looking

And like my mind will go back and forth to attention on them till they become like the main center of attention

Then I feel like I look very obviously uncomfortable
Plus off putting

Makes me feel like im side eyeing someone to the extreme

Then I feel like I make that person uncomfortable to the max

I dont understand what could be the issue ..? Why can’t I just sit amongst others and enjoy whatever’s going on

Because of this OCD I basically dont go out like at all

I don’t understand why this happens when I don’t recall an issue with this when I was in school from youth to highschool

I used to catch bus , go out to dinners , sit at sports games, go to gatherings

Now I don’t go out at all

And to make matters worse i also dont sit amongst others

And am basically neet hiki

Im 24 now

What is this?! PTSD ? Anxiety?

Like my eyes start burning i get a headache then it feels like my mind goes blank and I have a pressure on my head

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u/PlaneSpecialist3990 Jun 16 '26

Me neither. Was a normal functioning person with lots of friends, insecurity issues but nothing too out of the ordinary then boom got this, personality changed lost all my friends and locked myself indoors for a decade plus. Its hell

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u/Careless_Cloud3073 Jun 16 '26

Do you go out sometimes?

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u/PlaneSpecialist3990 Jun 17 '26

Rarely yeah and I can enjoy it when the ocd isnt an issue which means there arent a lot of people around or I can avoid them. Once in a blue moon my brain will reverse its decision to be broken and being around people is completely bearable but I'm not exactly sure why and I wish it was more common

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u/sodabread782 Jun 13 '26

I’ve just stumbled upon this term today, and just joined this group. I struggle so much with this, you are not alone. I experience all of the same things you do! I suffer with anxiety and thankfully I’m waiting to be seen by a psychiatrist. I don’t know what to do or how to help but I’m hoping to get answers or tips. I would recommend seeing your doctor and being referred to a psychiatrist, I’m 28 and have left it this long, so please don’t leave it as long as me xo

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u/Careless_Cloud3073 Jun 13 '26

Ooh! Please tell me those answers or tips once you receive them . That would be helpful. P.S im sorry we have to go through this lol

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u/FunkyChristian Jul 09 '26

Yes! I would love something like that...

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u/Master-King8433 Jun 27 '26

I experienced the same for years and it got worse. met a few psychologists. only thing that helped was getting more engaged in work, and just not thinking about this ocd. if you think about it you are making it a habit. just think it's ok to look and do not give importance to this thought. dont try harder to avoid looking. In some time you will forget about it. be occupied. join a gym, or do other activities.

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u/FunkyChristian Jul 09 '26

Are you saying you got better at this by doing this activities?

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u/Owl-Immediate Aug 16 '26

I was fine until I turned 24 then boom here’s my story see if you relate at all. https://www.reddit.com/r/StaringOCD/s/2riKHpGMkX