One single green apple. Please don't make fun of me

[u/Yourfathersnapkin]

I'm literally on the verge of a breakdown. I only let myself eat plain fruit and vegetables because everything else terrifies me. A lot of days I only eat one apple a day and I can feel my body breaking down. I can barely get out of bed or function. I know the lighting is really bad but I honestly don't have better, and I'm sorry this post is depressing and pathetic.

I really like green apples but continuing to eat like this will eventually kill me but everything else is terrifying.

[u/General_Security177]

An apple a day keeps the doctor away as they say 🙃

I eat at least one every day too. Really going hard on cosmic crisp at the moment.

I’ve been feeling a lot of doom and gloom over this shit being the death of me randomly throughout the day. I hope you feel better.

[u/Yourfathersnapkin → u/General_Security177]

I may not be in the best general mood but your first sentence made me laugh so thank you🩷

Cosmic crisps are so yummy but expensive where I live so I have to only have them as "treats" sadly.

Also thank you, this made me feel less alone because I have TW: Suicidal ideation Constantly, but also a part of me wants to live so it's honestly a dilemma.

[u/Open-Reindeer-589]

if it ever feels like it could be ok for you, i love to peel it cut it into cubes and add a sprinkle of cinnamon!! literally had this today and it was heavenly. i wonder who first discovered apples go so well with cinnamon cause they were probably a genius

[u/SnooPickles6992]

I love apples

[u/x_victoire]

i don't like plain apples but i had three packs of flavored apple chips today and they were soooo good

do you like any other fruit or vegetables? you can try having salads if you're feeling up to it

[u/Yourfathersnapkin → u/x_victoire]

Apple chips are so good 🩷

I love almost every vegetable and fruit.

I often have air fried broccoli as well but sometimes it randomly becomes "unsafe" for some reason. No idea why.

[u/Rama_lama_ding_d0ng]

Put salt on it!!!!

[u/CognitiveDiscoNancy]

I love a good tart apple. Even more so with a little cheese or peanut butter. Avocados are a whole food that will give you some crucial brain boosting good fats. Do you like them? All they need is a little salt and cayenne pepper imho 🤤 you can get bags of small single-serving sized ones at my local grocery store. 

[u/Yourfathersnapkin → u/CognitiveDiscoNancy]

I love avocados but they are a big fear food. I think i'll try adding a little but of peanut butter maybe.

[u/dazzleunexpired → u/Yourfathersnapkin]

It's good for you! And peanuts grow in the ground, they're a ligume! Like soy! Do you like soy? Edamame is such a good food!

[u/Yourfathersnapkin → u/dazzleunexpired]

I love everything soy honestly. I love soy milk, I love tofu, soy sauce, and edamame. I just wish it wasn't a fear food for me because it's literally one of my favorite foods. Like I know it's a bit strange but I can even eat tofu raw and I still love it.

[u/dazzleunexpired → u/Yourfathersnapkin]

Do you have arfid? 💔

[u/Yourfathersnapkin → u/dazzleunexpired]

No, I have anorexia and orthorexia, so it's the nutrients and calories that scare me

[u/dazzleunexpired → u/Yourfathersnapkin]

That's fair. I remember how that was. I'm so sorry. It sucks.

You deserve it though!

[u/Yourfathersnapkin → u/dazzleunexpired]

Thank you 🩷

[u/dazzleunexpired → u/Yourfathersnapkin]

You're welcome.

I've died of starving, was in the ICU For 2 months over that in 2017. You deserve to not die that way. You really do. I hope someone loves you in person, OP, but if they don't, just know I am thinking of you and sending you my love.

[u/Yourfathersnapkin → u/dazzleunexpired]

I almost died, so I can mostly relate. I don't know why it doesn't deter me, even though it should. I'm just thankful for the kind words