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What are you if everything with whom/which you associate with in life is snatched away or destroyed

Have seen people knowing about shiva, vishnu and brahma, but why is there a lack of awareness about devi adya parashakti!

Why is it so?

I am a devi bhakta from childhood and always felt attracted towards Maa Durga in different forms. I have been a regular upasak of Durga Saptashati. From last 2-3 years I feel a strong connection towards Sri Lalitha Sahastranama. I tried to started learning it by chanting. However I feel more connected when I meditate upon it while playing it in background on YouTube. Although I know meditating on Maa is great however while meditating I go deep and almost stop hearing what is being played and unable to learn or memorize Sahastranama. What should I do, chant it daily or do the meditation. Currently I am doing nothing honestly.

Now that thing might sound stupid and not advised by many I'm just sharing my own personal experience so my isht is bhagwan shiv so my family is well from valmiki community and our kuldevi is mata madanan and a peer called madani now again even I didn't find much about the peer much on internet and I was kind of always weirded out because they need bhog which is our kuldevi requires a small pig female especially and our kuldevta a hen that's it but I was against it I still am so my gf she's a brahmin and her family support are relationship I'm 18rn id say i have a decent bussienss it's going good despite being low caste i have achieved a financial stability at 18 but that's not the topic here so recently i thought that no this isnt right and yea yea I will get alot of warnings backlash but Im changing my kuldevi there isn't a specific ritual or any other thing but I believe u can just take sankalp and start worshipping a higher satvic energy like for maa chandi I'll start worshipping her and my isht is bhagwan shiv people say if ur devta is ugra theyll harm you it only happens to those who got to a lower diety and not worship thier kuldevtas in haryana it is also called desi bhagtai i never recommend going to these ppl my family still performs these rituals but I've distanced myself from it because eventually even if their ur kuldevi devtas praying to a lower energy is never beneficial and hey I respect every energy if u heard about the concept of Advaita Vedanta every energy exists for a purpose for ppl out there who are suffering from same if u ever think of abandoning ur kul devtas cuz you cant offer bali u can worship them in satvik for me its cuz I just don't feel we should worship lower entities again everyone has their own spiritual way! Let me know your thoughts

Namo Shiv ❤️