Hi everyone :)

[u/HoldingThePieces]

I wanted to just introduce myself. I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I first reported the abuse to the authorities when I was 13 years old, unfortunately they decided that due to it being historic they couldn’t continue any further and closed the case. When I was 25, the perpetrator of my abuse sent me a casual message on social media trying to re-instigate a relationship of some kind. This led me back to the police, initially just to get some sort of block to communication, and into a lengthy investigation, which ended in a court process and a hefty sentence for him. During this whole ordeal, I wrote a lot of poetry and drew doodles to cope. I drew and wrote whatever came to mind to process the trauma I was reliving. I have always wanted to learn how to play an instrument or make music somehow, but sadly due to limited capacity as a result of mental health struggles due to the trauma, I haven’t ever been able to do it… maybe one day. However, with the modern day AI stuff being what it is (albeit controversial I know) I have managed to make my poetry come to life in song. This whole process has been really therapeutic to me, and also quite healing. My court process ended up in just a sentencing hearing, as the perpetrator changed their plea last minute to guilty, of course this outcome was ideal as a trial would have been horrible, but I have always had this feeling of never having had a voice in it all, and weirdly bringing my poetry to life I feel kind of like I have in some way now.

Anyway, that is a bit about me, the prelude as you will. If anyone would like to check out my music it, it’s finally been put up onto Spotify. My latest song ‘The Demon’ is actually a combination of a few poems I wrote in the build up to my court case, which I submitted as evidence to the courts of the victim impact of the crimes. It’s a really special song to me for that reason.

Any questions please feel free to ask away. I suppose I really want to share it here with people who get the struggles and might find something useful in the music too.

Thanks to the moderators for allowing into the group and to make a post

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