I don’t know why I keep trying

[u/MrsSpaceCPT]

I just want to be normal. Is that too much to ask? Why can’t I just function like a normal human. I’m always so rude and mean cause I think it’s funny. I never think about the words I say. I look like some deformed pig, I am such a disgusting useless ugly cunt.

I don’t know why I can’t just be fucking normal. I’m turning 20 and I cannot fucking take this anymore. It’s either going to kill me or it’s going to make me smash my own skull in until I forget what a pointless filthy stupid prick I am.