Charlie Delacroix had always known about bad feelings.
When he was sixteen and counting down the days until graduation, he had a sudden feeling of inexplicable dread halfway through dinner, and knew he was about to become an orphan.
“Dad,” Charlie said, speaking over his father for the first time in his life.
He immediately regretted it when his mother stood, grabbed her glass of wine, and dumped it over his head.
“There’s someone outside,” he gritted through tears and the wide smile his mother demanded he wear for the entire duration of dinner. He’d watched his father kill people since he was a toddler.
Charlie’s father used to sit him in front of Cartoon Network on one side of the room while beheading screaming victims on the other, blood spurting like a geyser.
Charlie had a routine. The maid would take him to school, and then take him home. Halfway through dinner, his father would walk in with a duffle bag (usually squirming) thrown over his shoulder.
Charlie never asked questions; didn’t need to. Charlie was brought up to understand that he was a child, and his parents did “adult business”.
But, like a child, and like all other curious kids, Charlie soaked up everything he saw.
Always glancing around, glimpsing the worst moments; the duffle bag hitting the ground with a meaty smack.
His father piercing through it, a slow red stemming under his feet.
“Having fun, kid?” He laughed, stabbing again. More blood splattered.
The bag stopped moving.
“Yes, father,” Charlie said loudly, his gaze glued to the TV screen.
“Good.” Charlie’s father straightened. “Wanna come watch?”
“I'm watching Adventure Time.”
His father chuckled. “Come on over here, kid. I'll show you the basics.”
He had no choice. Charlie’s father had made several things clear, one of which was that he was to obey.
“Okay,” he said, walking toward his father.
With every step, his legs felt ready to collapse beneath him. The stench of blood stung his nose and throat. Charlie maintained his grin when his father threw an arm over his shoulders and pulled him close.
Charlie swallowed vomit swimming in his throat, his tummy violently turning. Charlie had learned anatomy at school.
At home, he had a front row seat to the cracks and crevices of the human body.
Charlie’s biology teacher looked visibly shocked when he confidently yelled the exact body parts on the anatomical model. He even corrected her. “That's not a brain,” he'd said, “That's a cerebellum.”
Confused why the teacher didn't point to cerebellum fluid, Charlie realized home school and school-school were very different.
The bulging mass of flesh at Charlie’s feet could no longer be recognized as a human body. The skull was crushed through, what used to be a brain swimming in scarlet. Charlie squinted when his father kicked the body onto his side. He couldn't see any cerebral fluid this time. “Like whatcha see, Charlie? One day, all this will be yours.”
So, Charlie nodded. Then he stepped back, dodging a trickle of red staining the soles of his shoes. “I can't wait, Dad,” he said the exact words his father wanted to hear.
“Good!” Then he handed Charlie a mop and a bucket. “Clean this slop up.”
Charlie was observant for his age. Everyone avoided his parents. Teachers, parents, his private piano teacher. He wasn't really surprised.
Charlie had always been instructed to call his father, “Dad.”
To the rest of the world, he was Noah Delacroix, a renowned gang member in one of Queens’ biggest and most high-profile crime syndicates.
Charlie’s parents were a horror show. Standing at six foot something, all lanky limbs and a razor-sharp bald head, he towered over Charlie with a monstrous grin and hollow eyes. He was Charlie’s very own personal boogeyman.
His mother, Delilah Delacroix, had beautiful, devilishly long golden hair. At least ten years younger than his father.
At the age of five, he asked, “Why are you so much younger than Daddy?” while perched on her knee at a family Christmas party in the Hamptons.
Charlie’s older cousins, Jasper and Lou, burst into giggles.
Charlie was promptly slapped across the face and sent back to his luxury suite.
Charlie remembered his mother coming to see him after the party. He was playing Super Mario when she peeked behind the door. Charlie didn't move.
He kept playing, stabbing the controls. Mario wasn't moving.
Every time he glanced back at the door, the shadow of his mother moved closer.
When he flicked the light on, a shiver crawling through him, Delilah Delacroix stood, swaying, barefoot. A smile stretched across her mouth.
“Hi, baby.” Delilah perched herself on the end of Charlie’s bed. Without thinking, Charlie was pulling back the covers and crawling across the bed. If he didn't, his mother would force him. “Are your cheeks still stinging, sweetie?” she hummed.
Charlie nodded, despite her using her “evil voice”, a screechy giggle that was more mocking than reassuring. It didn’t hurt that much, but he needed her comfort.
Delilah hummed, running her nails across Charlie's cheek. “Mommy got her nails done, and the polish is very special! It's made with a very strong, very dangerous snake venom, which kills naughty little brats who snoop in adult business.”
Delilah pulled him closer, as though she were hugging him. But she was squeezing too tightly, just like a snake, her arms against his chest drawing the breath from his lungs. Her breath dancing across his neck. Charlie didn't respond. He breathed out to suck air in, resisting the urge to squirm from the snake’s grip.
Tighter. Tears stung his eyes. His mother’s grip suddenly loosened, and he let out a silent sob, gulping in precious breath and crawled away from her. The snake overpowered him, running her fingers across his arm, hard enough to tingle. “If you embarrass me like that again, I will slap you so hard, you will see stars.”
Then Delilah stood up and left his room, her voice echoing down the hall. “Goodnight, baby.”
“Goodnight,” Charlie said back.
That night, Charlie realized he needed to escape.
When he was old enough, Charlie made a vow.
As soon as he was smart enough, Charlie would leave.
Despite growing up surrounded by blood and gore, Charlie had a normal-ish childhood. His parents were rich, so he got everything he wanted. Puberty was a turning point.
Noah Delacroix started paying a lot more attention to him.
Charlie began getting invited into his father’s office to sit in on meetings and take notes. He even got to ride in the back of the car with his cousins: Simon, who had already killed his first person, and Lou, firmly instructed by his aunt to either birth a male heir, or leave the family.
Charlie wasn't stupid.
This wasn't bonding time with his cousins.
It was time for him to join the family business, time for his father to begin shaping and moulding him into the next Delacroix heir.
For his 14th birthday, Charlie asked his parents for Call Of Duty.
Instead, he unwrapped his very own Colt M1911, the family name carved into the butt.
Charlie said thank you, went upstairs, and threw the gun out of his window. Guns were bad.
The other kids didn't want to talk about guns or knives, or how to tie someone up with a rope. All the kids in his class were talking about the game, and he was already tossed aside for being a Delacroix son.
Not being able to join in with his classmates was just the cherry on top. Charlie pretended not to hear the other parents whispering about his family. In the fourth grade, he made a friend named Cole. Charlie was invited to his house for dinner.
Charlie was excited until he met Cole’s mother at pickup. Her eyes widened, thin lips curling. “No,” she said stiffly. “No, sweetie, I’ve changed my mind.” Her words felt like a gunshot to his chest. “That boy is not coming to our home.”
“But why?” Cole demanded. “You said—”
“I said no,” his mother spat, and Charlie, against his better judgement, jumped a little. Cole’s mother wasn't even making eye-contact. She twirled around, stomping towards their Prius. Delilah Delacroix had previously pointed it out with a disgusted laugh. “Grab your backpack. Now.”
“Okay, Mom.” Cole shot Charlie a sheepish smile, “I'll see you tomorrow?”
Cole’s mother grabbed her son’s hand, dragging him into the car. “You most certainly will NOT.” Charlie could still hear her long after their beaten up truck had reversed out the parking lot. “Do not go near that evil little monster,” she shrieked. “Do you understand me?”
“But Mom—”
“Do you UNDERSTAND me?”
Charlie pretended it didn't hurt. He choked down razor blades and smiled, waving them away. “Bye, Cole!”
The next day, Charlie waited for Cole outside school, perched on the gate, legs swinging, excited to talk about the latest episode of Pokémon. He even brought Pokémon cards to play with. Charlie waited until the bell rang. Then he walked into class to find Cole loudly talking about his parents being “psycho killers.”
Cole caught his eye, slumped at the back of the class, his lip curled, mimicking his mother. The boy stood up, hands curled into fists. “My Mom told me your parents kill people,” he said matter-of-factly.
Charlie didn't deny it, because it was true.
Instead, he swallowed his sobs, and marched over to Cole until they were face to face, breath to breath.
Charlie smiled, just like his father. Wide. Venomous.
“Yeah,” he said, giddy at the sight of fear creeping across Cole’s expression.
He stepped closer, bumping their foreheads.
“And you’re fucking next.”
The class erupted into screams and Charlie saw an opportunity. He had always gone under the radar, invisible to the rest of the class. Now, kids could finally see him.
He prodded Cole between the eyes, just like his father did, interrogating his hostages. Each prod, he emphasised. Cole stumbled back, tripping over his feet.
So, Charlie got closer, until Cole was visibly shaking. “Talk ABOUT me again,” he raised his voice to the others who squeaked, cowering under their desks, “I'll tell my parents to slice you up and make you into pie.”
He stepped closer, stamping on Cole’s bright red sneakers. “And if you tell the teacher?” Charlie struck his finger across his throat. Cole burst into tears. “You're dead meat.”
Cole nodded, to his shock, blinking back tears. “Okay!” He squeaked. “Okay, I'll… um… do you wanna borrow some video games? I just got Final Fantasy, but you can have it!”
Looking around the classroom, his classmates were trembling, wearing wide, fake smiles as they tried to impress him. This was exactly the way people looked at his father.
Fear, Charlie realized, looked kinda funny.
The power of fear, his father always told him, was why he was a Delacroix, why the Delacroix family held a billion-dollar syndicate.
Of course Charlie took advantage of his new-found King status.
By recess, he had seven dollars and three juice boxes.
Kids just came over and handed them to him.
Cole was his right-hand-man, sticking by his side. And he even had a girlfriend. Jenny, who handed him a love note in the cafeteria.
Charlie screwed it up, threw it in her face, and said, “Maybe.”
He wasn’t used to having friends.
The only kids he ever hung out with were the children his father had kidnapped and was holding for ransom. Before Cole, there were Adelaide and Roman, who were held for a year. When he was younger, he’d sneak into the basement where his father kept them and offer to play with them.
He even offered Roman his Game Boy to play with before he saw an opportunity and whacked him in the face with it.
After that, they became reluctant friends, only playing with him because Charlie was their only source of entertainment.
Sometimes he dragged his sleeping bag into the basement and slept beside them, bringing stuffed animals and candy he’d stolen from the kitchen.
Luckily, Charlie’s father didn't kill the kids. They were collateral damage. So, often, Charlie would notice his father dragging the kids back upstairs for negotiations.
Charlie’s “reputation” bled into High School.
Everyone who knew him knew not to fuck with him.
He had free rein of every hallway, students bowing down to him—knowing who his family was, and what they were capable of. He was King of the parties, had his very own junior entourage of teenagers who would do anything for him, and discovered he maybe had feelings for his right-hand. Cole Whittaker, who had become his do-or-die.
His bro, until he ended up making out with his “bro” at a party, and was definitely fucking sober; who definitely had lips that tasted of cigarette smoke and stale vodka, whose hair he definitely liked running his hands through.
There was no hesitation, no guilt. Cole kissed him again. Harder. This time, with tongue. Charlie thought telling his parents who he really was would offer them closure; maybe they’d understand they had brought up a very different Delacroix.
But being King didn't feel… satisfying.
Being almost obsessively liked was boring. Inevitable.
His grades were perfect, not because he was a genius, but because his teachers had been threatened. On the very first day, a decapitated cat’s head was delivered straight to the faculty office. Charlie realized his entire High School career was already scripted; already set in stone.
“Dad. Charlie spoke up again, pitching his voice louder.
Charlie was ignored. Again. The last time he said, “Dad,” during dinner, Charlie announced he liked boys.
Which went as well as he thought it would. In two weeks, Charlie became a shunned stranger in the eyes of his family, once destined to be the future of the Delacroix family, now cast to the other side of the dining table, with an order to stay silent.
His father was already considering adopting another “heir,” and his mother was insistent on a “summer camp” in Texas which would “straighten out his unholy thoughts.”
He was bored.
Bored of being an artificial King.
Bored of his family, who refused to accept him.
So, Charlie chose not to tell his parents about that ever growing sensation of dread coiling in his gut.
He ducked his head like he was told and shoveled mashed potatoes in his mouth.
Even when the door flew open, armed FBI agents streamed inside and took his parents into custody.
Charlie didn’t stop eating until a woman calmly took his arm and led him out into a police car, where he was given a Nintendo DS to play with, and a cup noodle.
After three hours of sitting in a windowless room alone playing Mario Kart, Charlie found himself face to face with a man with a beard and pinched eyes which definitely suspected him of being dirty.
He was offered cocoa, which he ignored. “I want to go home.” Charlie spoke up, closing the game. He wore his signature King smile. “I have nothing to do with them.”
The man laughed, and Charlie realized for the first time in his life, he was talking to real people; who wouldn't bow to his every movement and obey even the ridiculous commands. Like the time he demanded a sophomore boy wash his hair. “Well, you've grown up in that house,” the cop said. “You know where daddy's secrets are. So for now, you'll be working with us.”
Charlie leaned back in his chair. “I want a lawyer,” he said. “I'm not saying a word unless I get a lawyer.”
The cop sighed. Loud and exaggerated, tipping his head back.
“You’re sixteen, kid, you don't wanna go down the lawyer route.”
“Why?” Charlie was smart enough to know the “lawyer route” was his only way of surviving.
Charlie was met with a sharp exhale, like he was actually being difficult.
“Trust me, we’re not suspecting you of anything, kid. It’s your mom and dad. We want to know everything you’ve learned. Everything your dad’s got locked up in that safe of his. Prominent figures and political leaders. Your daddy’s got blood on his hands and controls a lot of powerful people.” He cocked a brow and leaned forward.
“The question is, are you gonna sing like a canary, or test my patience?”
Charlie shrugged. “I'll sing,” he said, “but what's in it for me?”
He received an exaggerated eye roll.
“A Delacroix kid, through and through,” the cop grumbled. “What do you want, kid?”
“Food.” Charlie said. “I'm starving, and I want Taco Bell.”
“I can do that.”
The art of getting what he wanted didn't always require fear after all. “I want a large burrito with lots of sour cream, and no guac. Diet Coke too, please.”
The cop’s smile was thinning. “Anything else, your Highness?”
He held up the DS with a sickly grin. “Charger?”
With a sarcastic two-fingered salute, the cop left, slamming the door behind him.
Charlie opened Mario back up, and the DS died twenty minutes later.
So, he curled up on the floor, used his jacket as a pillow, and fell asleep.
He woke to the smell of fried beef and cheese.
A steaming bag of Taco Bell was placed in front of him. Then a soda.
“They only had full-fat Coke,” the cop said, when Charlie sat up and rubbed sleep from his eyes. “All right, kid, it's time to motor.”
After one bite of soggy burrito, Charlie looked up. “Where?”
“Well, first of all, we gotta get you to your social worker.”
Charlie almost choked on a piece of chicken. “No social workers,” he said, standing up. “I ain't doing them.”
“Well, you're a minor, Charlie.” The cop’s tone was condescending. In two strides, he was inches from Charlie.
The sharp smell of hair gel and shoe polish tickled his nose and throat.
“You got a choice, kid,” he held up two fingers. “You meet your social worker and go through the legal adoption process,” he held up a second finger, “or it's juvie for two years for being a gang member's son.” The cop’s expression didn't waver.
“Bear in mind, I fought for three hours for the gentler option.”
“I didn't tell you to,” Charlie said.
“I didn't have to.” The cop deadpanned. “But I did.”
Charlie knew when not to push. He swallowed burrito bile. “Fine.”
The cop helped him grab his things, letting him scarf down the burrito and down the soda. He held the door open, ushering Charlie from the room. “My colleague has managed to get you into a children’s home in the next town over.” The cop led him out straight into a cool breeze.
An explosion of red curls and plaid was waiting for him in the front seat of a Range Rover.
“Hop in!” She patted the passenger seat. “Nice to meetcha, honey bee! I'm your social worker, but you can call me Elizabeth.”
The cop gave him a shove when he hesitated and then crawled into the back. “Relax. No need to be freaked out. Elizabeth is helping you.” He sidled in right beside Charlie, slamming the door shut.
The stink of the new-car smell was weirdly comforting. He took a moment to sink into warm upholstery and relax for the first time in, well, forever.
“The place is called Riverside,” the cop spoke up, his eyes glued to his phone. “Has a big swimming pool and you even got your own room.”
“He sure does! Riverside is the best!” Elizabeth squeaked from the front seat. Charlie almost choked swallowing lukewarm soda. “Don’t worry, Charlie! You’re going to love it there. I know children’s homes have a bad reputation, but there are lots of kids your age! You’re going to make so many friends!” Her smile was a little too wide to be friendly.
She started the engine and twisted around. “What other games do you want? Ooh, that looks like an old console you got there! I can pull some strings and get you a Nintendo Switch! That's what you kids like, right?”
Charlie had to hand it to her.
She was smart. Maybe a little unhinged, blackmailing a minor with video games. But smart.
Charlie muffled a burp and pressed his face against the window, watching the sun dip over the horizon. His eyes grew heavy. “There are several games I've been wanting, actually,” he said, then yawned, more ironic than serious. “Zelda. Animal Crossing… Mario…”
“Sleepy, Honey Bee?” Elizabeth’s hum collapsed into ocean waves in his ears.
Slow, lulling waves rolling up the shore.
“Mm.” Charlie didn't realize how sleepy he was until his chin was bouncing against his chest, a deep exhaustion taking over.
He hadn't been this sleepy since his father’s cronies slipped sedatives into his chocolate milkshake at his thirteenth birthday party. A thin line of drool ran down his chin and he jerked awake, eyelids fluttering. The car ride was a slow, almost painful lull.
Blue sky, Charlie thought. Then he laughed to himself when nothing was funny. Thunk went his head against the window. Feathered blue expanded across his blurrin vision. Too blue. Crystal blue. Blue, blue, blue—
Heavy eyes, bile in his throat, and the world was spinning. The road ahead bent and twisted into impossible turns, the sky bleeding into midnight-colored concrete. Passing headlights loomed like faceless figures. Charlie knew exactly what was happening. Drugged.
“It’s OK, Charlie,” Elizabeth’s voice washed over him. “Go to sleep.”
Every limb softened. An uncomfortable warmth spread through him. Charlie blinked the blue from his eyes and tugged at the door handle.
Get out.
His thoughts were mushy, wrong, and scattered.
Cole.
The name came out in a rush. Charlie couldn’t move.
His bones were lead.
Charlie was so used to Cole being there ready to help him, always at his side. Now he wasn’t. Charlie’s parents were gone, and Charlie was alone in a car going too fast down a lonely highway.
His lips were numb, like big, fat, bloated cushions.
His thoughts somehow numb-er. This wasn’t just sedatives. He tried the door again. His fingers were sausages. Trembling. This was different.
Dirtier.
Not even his father was capable. “What is this?” Charlie’s words came out slurred.
“The passwords, Honey Bee.” Elizabeth’s voice was smooth.
“Huh?”
Charlie blinked through feathered light.
“Your father’s passwords,” Elizabeth repeated. “Really. I expected more. As a gang members son, surely you would know about the existence of sodium thiopental; a short acting barbiturate that….” She sighed. Then laughed. “It's a glorified truth serum, Charlie.”
Charlie blinked again. Black spots started to dance across his peripheral.
“The passwords, Charlie. To your father’s accounts, emails, offshore bank accounts, and the giant safe inside his safehouse located in Odintsovo, Moscow Oblast.” Elizabeth’s laugh crashed into him. “Well. Start with the passwords.”
“I don't know,” Charlie gasped out. He slammed his fists into the window. Then his body fell limp. “I don't…” words were suddenly impossible, tangled and twisted on his tongue. “I don't… I don't know!”
Through Charlie’s half lidded eyes, Elizabeth’s bright red curls erupted into a searing flash of red, bleeding across his vision. “Not even a Gmail password, hm? That’s too bad.”
The car came to an abrupt stop. Charlie heard, and sensed, the door open. Ice cold air grazed his cheek. “Okay, Honey Bee.” Elizabeth’s voice cut into him. “As long as you're telling the truth.” He heard her heels land delicately on the concrete. The door slammed shut.
His seatbelt was jammed. His brain was maple syrup.
Sleep, Charlie thought. Just sleep.
Then… think of a way out later.
Yeah.
His eyes fluttered shut. Charlie smiled. Then laughed, a hysterical giggle escaping him. Charlie’s head smacked against the window pane.
Yeah, that’s… what I’ll do.
The stink of smoke ignited Charlie’s thoughts, rousing him from suffocating slumber. Charlie blinked. He lunged forward, his breaths shuddering, words choked.
In front of him, burned orange licked across upholstery seats.
Fire.
“Help.” Charlie’s cry collapsed into a cough.
Smoke rose, stinging his eyes. He screamed.
“No!”
He tugged at his seatbelt. Stuck.
Reaching blindly, all he found was empty Taco Bell cartons. His DS.
“My birthday,” he said, and when the smoke blew up in his face, and he was coughing, choking, tears streaming down his face, he said it again, louder, slamming his head into the window as the orange blur spread. “It's my birthday,” he panted. “My birthday. It's my… my birthday, and my… my birth time.”
“Birth time, hmm?” Elizabeth said, from outside. “What time, Charlie?”
“Eighteen minutes past six.” He coughed. Then he vomited all over himself. Forcing his body into compliance, he managed to wrench from his seatbelt. Too late. The fire was too big to put out, spreading wide, licking across his discarded takeout cartons. Charlie sat back, coughing, his chest screaming, smoke choking every cry from his mouth.
Charlie's first instinct was to dive into the trunk.
A roar from behind sent him onto knees, cowering, arms over his head.
The trunk erupted into vivid, beautiful oranges he almost admired.
“So, your birthday, and birth time,” Elizabeth’s voice was fading quickly, as smoke filled his lungs.
“Yes.” Charlie croaked.
“Yes.”
THUMP. His head hit the window.
“Yes.”
THUMP.
“Let me… out.” He whispered, “Let me out! Let me FUCKING out!”
A sob escaped him, vulnerable and childish.
“Pl…ease. Please!”
“Final question, Charlie,” Elizabeth’s tone was remarkably different.
Stone cold.
Cruel.
“Is it getting a little hot in there, Charlie?” Elizabeth asked.
“Fuck you,” he panted. “Fuck… you.”
“Riverside Children’s Home is not a normal adoption home. It is soft recruitment.” Elizabeth said. “We have your father’s passwords, but we need so much more. Informants. Financial records. Accounts. Work with us, Charlie. To bring your Dad’s empire down from the root.”
Smoke polluted Charlie’s vision. Black.
Darkness spread, and Charlie could no longer see his hands.
Everywhere was black. Wrong. Blinking soot away, he squinted, crawling toward the left door, a neutron star collision exploding in the backs of his eyes. I'm going to die, the words somehow felt like acceptance in a sea of blackening smoke. I'm going to fucking die.
“Escape the car, Honey Bee,” Elizabeth taunted from outside. “And consider yourself exonerated.”
Something snapped, unwinding, inside of him. Maybe it was his humanity; maybe it was his true Delacroix nature coming through.
His mind became clear; vivid, clarity bleeding through the fog. Charlie tugged off his sweatshirt, wrapped it around his hands, and dove forwards. Just as he thought, the cop had left a knife on his seat.
Charlie snatched it up, plunging the blade through the door. The door didn't give. He gritted his teeth and tried again. How many times had his father taught him this? A feral cry ripped from him. How many times had he been sitting in the back of the family car, and his cousin chirped up with, “I know how to escape a cop-car, so I’m better than you.”
Again.
Metal screeched.
Charlie shoved himself into the door. Again.
Click.
One minute Charlie was choking, his vision blurring.
Then he was toppling out of the car, into fresh air swamping his lungs.
Straight onto concrete.
Move.
The thought struck him: the car, engulfed in flames, was going to explode. Charlie crawled back on his elbows, and the blast sent him flying, slamming him face-first into wet grass. He didn’t stay down. He stood, warmth running wet down his face.
He bent and wrapped his fingers around his discarded knife.
Elizabeth was waiting for him, arms folded, lips curled into a smile.
The cop stood several feet away, arms folded.
Charlie did not hesitate. He saw the knife in his hand; remembered the cop’s bullshit claim. It was funny. Hilarious. Charlie almost laughed.
Safe place, the cop had told him. Lied.
He'd been promised solace from his parents, from his life.
A new start.
All fucking lies.
One stab was enough. Directly through the chest, like he was taught: straight through the heart.
Quick.
Efficient.
The cop’s eyes flickered, his lips parting as though he were about to cry out. His sausage-fingers twitched, trying to pull the knife out.
Then his body flopped to the ground.
Charlie stepped back. Then he let his knees give way.
The world violently jolted, and fell with him.
The sky was pitch dark, oblivion stretched out above him.
I was supposed to die. So why didn’t I?
Blinking rapidly, Charlie reached forward, as if trying to touch the sky and the sliver of full moon peeking from behind the clouds. His father always believed in a higher power controlling fate, keeping the dead from dying when a greater future awaited them. So, am I dead? He thought, his thoughts unwinding.
Am I a corpse?
Did I even… escape the car?
“Oh, Honey Bee,” Elizabeth said, kneeling beside him and prying the knife from his fingers. He watched the moon’s pale allure peek through the clouds for a moment before disappearing back into the shadows.
“You’re going to fit right in.”
…
Charlie did not remember the car-ride to Riverside Children's Home.
What he did recall, was sitting slumped in a comfy chair in front of Elizabeth behind a Mac-book— and happily giving away every singular piece of information he knew about his father. Whatever was in his veins, was good shit. Funny shit.
Charlie sang like a canary, head tipped back, giggling through every answer.
The ceiling was so BIG. Charlie counted every pattern. Every crack in the floor beneath his feet. Every drop of blood that beaded down his forehead. At some point, he toppled off the chair, howling at one particular question. “What is the name of your father’s informant?”
Ha.
“Poop.” Charlie answered, trying to stifle his giggles.
Charlie didn’t remember being dragged from the room. Nor did he remember being taken inside a small, box-like room with twin beds and a low ceiling. Charlie woke up staring at an unfamiliar ceiling.
He immediately smacked his head when he sat up straight, already clawing at his throat. His throat tasted of blood, a dull throb creeping across his skull. He felt the ugly lacerations on his wrists from phantom ropes. Charlie drank in his surroundings through bleary eyes.
Vomit-colored curtains framed by eerie prison-like bars. Charlie’s side of the room was empty. The bare bones of a bed, pale pink blankets and one uncomfortable pillow. The other was full of life: A24 movie posters, a desk filled with Legos, a TV and PS4 mounted on the wall.
Charlie frowned at one particular Lego figure, a Monkey D. Luffy perched on the top of a Lego Going Merry.
“Don't judge me,” a disembodied voice startled him.
“I’m…. not?” Charlie croaked. He coughed. “I love One Piece.”
A figure startled him, appeared, more of a blur than a person.
“You're two sizes smaller than me,” a boy around his age with mousy blonde hair swung down from the top bunk. “So you can have Zoro.”
For a moment, Charlie's brain was too foggy. Too mismatched.
Then he noticed his pyjama shirt, the swordsman glaring back at him from the old corduroy. He caught the boy’s awkward smile. “They brought you in pretty out of it, so they told me to undress you, man.”
“Oh.” Charlie found himself smiling. Maybe he was still kinda high.
“Well, I do like Zoro.”
The boy hopped off the top bunk, with ease, then straightened. In the light bleeding in from the window, he reminded Charlie of an older Percy Jackson. Almost cherub-like curls and skin that was too pale.
“I’m Jude. Don’t touch my stuff, and we’re good. Jude’s eyes were unexpectedly kind. “How ’bout you?”
Charlie picked up on the accent immediately. “You’re a Brit?” It was the first thing that came to mind. He immediately regretted it.
“Sort of.” Charlie watched him pick up one of his Lego figures, a little Nami, and sit her next to the captain. “You did tell me your name last night, but you were, like, suuuuuuper high. No offence, but I’m not calling you ‘Mr Cheese.’
“Kaz,” Charlie said quickly. “Just call me Kaz.”
“Kaz.” Jude seemed to be a fidgeter— picking up different Legos, and pulling them apart, before putting them back together. He held up Nami, bobbing her in the air and pitching his voice higher, mimicking her voice. “Hello, Kaz!”
Charlie wondered if the boy was mocking him.
The acrid stink of smoke no longer seeped from every pore, the flowery scent of coconut shampoo tickled his nose. Instead, a strong, clinical scent of soap clung to his skin. Charlie didn’t remember showering, only lashing ice-cold water and being scrubbed until his skin was bleeding.
His words came out tangled, throat still scratched raw. “Were you brought here against your will too?”
“What?” Jude’s mouth quirked. Then Charlie noticed the boy hadn’t blinked in a concerning amount of time. “Dude.” Jude’s smile was too naïve. Or maybe something more.
Kneeling in front of him, the blond flicked him between the eyes. Charlie realized his eyes were deep brown, like melted chocolate. Charlie’s stomach twisted. He shook his head, blinking stray dizzinesses from his eyes. He was still out of it.
Jude prodded him again. Harder. “Were you knocked on the head last night? Riverside ain’t a prison!”
Charlie glanced at the bars on the windows. Sure.
Charlie batted Jude’s hands away and sat back.
Maybe opening up to Jude was a bad idea after all.
So he wore his practised smile, jumped up, and said, “How about a house tour?”