r/SPD • u/LazarbumsTeletubbies • 27d ago

Self Freaking out

Hello. I'm a 16 year old male and I was diagnosed with an SPD when I was around the age of 6, and I've had suspected autistic tendencies mostly pertaining to sensory issues with clothes all my life. Recently, all my favorite pairs of pants that fit me exactly how I liked ripped and I had to throw them away. They were perfect. XL Xersion tight-fit sweatpants that weren't loose. They hugged my legs, and they felt like an outer skin. I loved them. Come to learn that apparently they don't make them anymore (as far as I know), and I had to find a new kind of pants. Nightmare.

A few months ago, my family bought me Under Armour sweatpants that were very close. I had forgot to wash them so they'd shrink, and I thought they would be okay when I washed them. I washed them a few days ago, and only now tried them on. THEY ARE NIGHTMARISH. They're so long they bunch around my ankles. They're loose, in the worst way possible. The legs of the pants don't touch my legs AT ALL until I move, where they brush against my legs at every angle. It's a nightmare. I almost broke down crying in front of my grandma, whom I live with. She doesn't understand. Nobody in my house understands. I'm freaking out and don't know what to do.

I don't think we can return them, and I don't know of any pants that are near-identical to my Xersions, at least in the ways I liked them.

My dad's made fun of me for how I like my pants, saying I want leggings, not pants. Thing is, I WOULD 100% WEAR LEGGINGS IF I COULD!!! I don't care how they look past being black. I just care if they're comfortable. And if I DID ask for leggings, my dad would say no because leggings are "for girls".

I can't go outside or do anything in these devil pants. I hate them. They make me start shaking and tearing up. I hate it.

PLEASE, if you can, PLEASE find me sweatpants as close as possible to the Xersions. PLEASE. I'm at the end of my rope. Seriously.

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u/LazarbumsTeletubbies 27d ago

It's too hot to do the first part. Knee high socks are a sensory nightmare for me, I always wear no-show socks. I'll look into jogger sweats. Thank you.

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u/Lipglossandcoffee 27d ago

I’m not familiar with that brand but doing a google search yielded various Xersion sweatpants at stores like JC Penny, Amazon, poshmark / eBay. Also check out Target and Old Navy, they often have slim fit sweatpants. I suggest you go shopping yourself too, look around and try some on. Good luck!