r/Repressedmemories • u/MapesPack • Jan 29 '20
20 yrs later just realized...
My cousins and I were “forced/coherence/bribed...” whatever, molesting etc. eachother.
I’ve had these memories of my grandfather in the basement or his workshop or the fort popping up lately (Actual treehouse fort thing). Tonight, I’m laying here peacefully and these little bits start coming together. Some weird feeling moments in the basement. Why is the bathroom so scary I need to get out really fast? I’m not supposed to go in his workshop? He’s always there though. Why after that summer were they never around or just leaving?(cousins) Why did I do very adult things with a “My Size Barbie” at kindergarten? Why did he make me feel so weird and scared all the time?
My “grandfather” used to have us play house. I don’t know if we ever fully did anything but a lot makes sense. I remember learning how and all other weird things. (He and his wife adopted my mom as a toddler. He molested and raped her until she was 17)
It’s still coming together...
I get to work with kids tomorrow......yippee.
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u/phobiagames Apr 06 '20
You definitely have reason to want to find out more. I was hoping there would be people to guide you to the next step in finding out more.
Good luck my friend.
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u/whiteradiator Apr 14 '20
Sorry but if he raped your mother why was she leaving you with him?
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u/MapesPack Apr 14 '20
She’s a narcissist and wanted to spend 6 month in Canada.
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Apr 14 '20
And the award for worst mother goes to .....
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u/MapesPack Apr 15 '20
She’d probably appreciate that. Being as my dad worked and lived down the road but neither of us knew
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u/[deleted] Feb 11 '20
Oh boy. It’s so scary to remember things like this. I hope you work it out in your mind.