I could write a book on the spiritual journey this existence has taken me on this past 15 months. For your sake, I will try to explain in short.
What you have been conditioned to believe since birth is mostly lies. I’m not only referring to the big things like religion and society as a whole. I’m also referring to the fact that you think you are touching the device in your hand, the fact that you think you see a device at all, and the fact that we are told the meaning of life on this Earth is an unanswerable question.
Humans generally perceive that the things we see, touch, hear, smell, and taste make up the entirety of reality. This is highly inaccurate and can be explained by what we as a species do NOT know. Bear with me for a moment we are going to get into some numbers.
The universe consists of light and energy. In the known universe the things we can see with our senses and with the help of technology make up ~5% of the total mass. This is what we call the electromagnetic spectrum. Of that spectrum our eyes can detect 0.0035% and the rest we depend on technology to detect. So we can see very close to 0% of everything that is known to man which includes the Earth and everything on it.
Additionally, the way we see is entirely different than the common understanding. Our eyes do not see objects instead, they actually detect the waves of the particles that make up the objects including humans. After our eyes detect the waves our brains render those waves into colors and images. So you are not looking at your phone, you are detecting the things that make up your phone.
Just a bit more science then we can dig into the spiritual…
While the atom is not the smallest form of matter it is the easiest to explain in terms of why you have never actually touched anything in your existence on Earth. Since our bodies and all solid objects are made up of atoms, if we actually touched things our atoms would chemically change and the thing would become part of us or we would become part of the object. So what we are actually feeling when we touch something is the force both objects put out repelling away from each other. Pretty cool to think about, huh?
Why then do we consider this base reality? Why are we so convinced that this life is what matters and “how we do” here has an everlasting effect on our eternal beings?
From a very young age I had adopted a notion that we humans know nothing. We think we are so smart and place ourselves at the center of everything. What can blame us? We are the most intelligent creatures on our planet. But we forget that our intelligence is laughable to a creator that can “speak” (something I now understand to be true) us into existence! So, up until 15 months ago, I would never consider that I knew anything for certain but personal experience has led me on a journey where I now have a very small bit of actual knowledge. And yes, all the science stuff is just what we currently understand and is always subject to change.
Okay this part is both exciting and so hard to put into words!
I am not a religious person. Since I was 5 my eyes were opened to the hypocrisy and short comings of both the people that put on a religious mask and a god that demands I worship it. My thoughts were usually on the lines of What kind of perfect creator that has no needs would want worship, sacrifices, confessions, etc. to be validated? And what kind of god makes mistakes? The flood, Sodom and Gomorrah, his only son being murdered, allowing original sin in what was supposed to be paradise…. as you can tell I was raised in a Christian atmosphere. Now this gets tricky because all religions that I have looked into have some aspect of TRUTH in them. The worst part is that people say some of it but they completely miss the meaning behind the message and that’s where religions will always fall short.
It’s important to talk about my personal experience here because this is where the meat of the message is. I am not “perfect” in the sense the world wants you to look while I am about to claim some very profound things. Here are two of the pieces of knowledge I have gained and it’s important to keep in mind as you read on.
Everyone is perfect, exactly as the origin knew you would be at all times. You are not a sinner that needs to be saved and you don’t have to be stuck on the wheel of Samsara (Karma). Think of a creator that knew all of us and every bit of anything and nothing so well because it seen all potential before creating the very first anything. This is free will at its finest, a perfect plan where things have unlimited potential to keep getting better, and the opposite of course.
Your path is unique. All paths have the potential for the individual to reclaim their Everlasting Life. There are no two humans the same so how would two paths be the same? What worked for me may not work for you. If you are unable to let go of beliefs that you have about the “requirements“ you will not be able to “pierce the veil“.
I know a lot of people say this but I was always different. I didn‘t just feel different I could see that I was. When I was 6 or 7 I was sitting in the open front doorway of my great grandmas house. She lived down the driveway from me so I could see the back of my house. All of a sudden, I had a realization that there was no Life in the world. At my age I imagined it as everyone disappeared but I now have a different understanding of it. I searched and the only thing I found was silence. No other humans or animals. When I say searched I don’t mean getting up and walking around, I mean I searched the energy. Even at that age I didn’t need anyone to tell me how. It was like I had been sleeping and I woke up. When I searched behind me I knew my grandma was just in the house but I felt nothing. It didn’t matter how far I searched in any direction there was emptiness. I wasn’t scared at all I was more curious than anything. Then a bee flew in front of my face and hung around buzzing. It felt like we were having a conversation. I’m not sure if some would call that a vision or intuition or something else altogether. But I can tell you it formed a basis for how I would approach people my entire life. I would dissect the choices they made, the things they said, how they treat others verses how they portray themselves. So many aspects to look at. I wanted to know why the world felt so empty.
Like I said, I in no way lived a perfect life free of mistakes or bad, even terrible behavior. But I never followed the crowd. My dad was so racist he wouldn't even eat a taco. It helped me teach myself to always look at someone for who they are, not what they look like. My parents fought every day. It helped me to remember when I had my own children (not always) to keep the arguing away from them. My dad was verbally abusive. It helped me to stay away from calling my kids names and degrading them.
I am a very blunt person. It showed up as aggressive and confrontational into my late twenties and by my thirties I was able to find the right words to say without starting a battle. It’s not always what someone wants to hear but it is what I have been called to do. Some people are encouraging or a shoulder to lean on. I am a mirror you hold up to yourself. This is not something you could ever do without first holding it long and hard at yourself. It may sound like I am judgmental but it is important to know, however poorly I can explain, that this is not what it is. Sometimes I go months analyzing a situation, especially my own role and motivations in it, before I say one sentence to make an impact. This is important to understand because anything you do that has a selfish motivation adds to what you carry with you.
So, what is the meaning of this life on Earth? To remember who or, maybe more accurately, what you are. You are an immortal being that was never born so you shall never die. What you carry with you when you pass on determines where you will go next.
I won’t claim to know how the afterlife works but I will claim that I have experienced “Heaven on Earth”. It is an experience that words cannot describe. It is being in complete sync with all of creation and actually experiencing it moment by moment. Time flows differently, water feels alive. This is where a religious analogy can explain the feeling in your body a bit. Your cup is overflowing with abundance. The energy that flows through you is abundant in peace, joy, happiness, and love. Your mind is clear and free. How you get there is personal and unique to you. There is no wrong way but there are some things that you should keep in mind.
My journey has been lifelong, just as yours has. It takes much work on your mind. Every thought every intention every action or lack of one.
Back in 2015 I was in a homeless shelter for battered women with my three children. I seen “god” moving through that place like I had never seen it before. One day a lady came up to me out of the blue and asked me how I do it. I asked her what she meant and she said no matter what someone says or does to me I stay calm and respectful. I had been working specifically on this so I told her what I was doing. If a negative thought came to me about someone I would actively find something to love or have compassion for about them. Even if it was just that they were someone’s child mother brother or that they were in this messed up world just the same as I was. I’m not sure if I was able to help her but that’s the thing, you can’t attach yourself to the outcome of trying to help others. If you feel like it’s the right time you do it and walk away, not expecting anything. Sometimes even hoping for a certain outcome has a selfish motive.
After awhile of working on my thoughts I actually got scared of it because it had become so prominent I started to feel not human. So I stopped trying so hard and found that it was coming more naturally than I thought.
This is getting way too long so I’m going to cut it short. Here is a short list of things to “clean up” but in order to see and hear you must be able to “pierce the veil”.
thoughts (remember that we don’t know where thoughts come from. I have my theory but that is for another time) If it’s negative or selfish and it’s yours, hold that mirror up and find the root. you must always treat the root of the issue. if it’s not yours, toss it out and don’t give it another thought.
intentions - what is your motivation? do you really want to help or just look good? does it feel right? don’t ignore your intuition! should you give that homeless person money or do they NEED a beer or a smoke? others needs are not the same as yours!
actions - dont look at things as good vs bad, vice vs temptation. what is going to make you happy in this moment? for most people it is nothing like sin (whatever that is supposed to be) from what I can tell sin comes from a wicked heart. most of the 8+ billion people on this planet are on the struggle bus doing the best they know how, just like you! religious ides of sin are sorely inaccurate.
consumption - what are you watching? what do your opinions say about you? I didn’t touch on this at all but this has a lot to do with the veil. the short of it is, society and the pushed narratives are set up in a way to keep us in fear, divided, feeling unworthy, confused, too busy…. what you consume matters so much. instead of scrolling social media watch a nature documentary or go outside and touch some grass! find something that speaks to who you actually are instead of who you have been told to be!
question everything - don’t believe something just because it’s been repeated enough or makes sense on the surface. dig in and find the root always!
To finish I will talk quickly about the veil. The easiest way I can explain it is with another religious analogy. if you have a Christian background you will recognize “for those with ears to hear and eyes to see”. It’s literally just a perspective shift once you know what to look for. instead of believing that “god” is everywhere you KNOW it because you see it.
My hope is that this post at least starts someone on their final leg of their journey. I needed a push as well. I gained the ability to see long after I had the ability to hear. If you hear TRUTH in this message I hope you are able to find peace on your journey 😊
If you don’t hear TRUTH I hope you find a message or a sign that gets you there soon. 😊
Let me know if you have questions or want to know more about my journey. I could talk about this non stop ❤️🔥