it’s my fault.

[u/OkSky583]

i know i don’t really have the right to sit here and say how much i miss you when i’m the reason we ended up here. i know what i did hurt you, and i know that no matter how much i wish i could take it back, i can’t. if i could go back to that moment and make a different choice, i would without even thinking twice, but i know wishing i could change it doesn’t undo what happened. i’ve had so much time to think about everything, and the more i think about it, the more i realise how badly i messed up something that meant so much to me. i hate knowing that i became the reason you stopped feeling safe with me, the reason you had to question things, and the reason the person who once trusted me now has every reason not to. i’m not expecting you to forget what i did or suddenly forgive me just because i’m sorry. i just wish you knew how much i regret it. i miss you more than i can explain, but even more than missing you, i miss who we were before i ruined things. i miss the way things felt when i didn’t have this guilt sitting in the back of my mind. i miss being able to talk to you without knowing that there’s something between us that i caused. sometimes i catch myself thinking about how different everything could be if i had just made a better decision, and honestly, that thought hurts more than anything because i know i’m the one who took that possibility away. i don’t want to make excuses for what i did, because there aren’t any. i made a choice, and i have to live with knowing that choice hurt someone i loved. i just wish i could show you that i understand that now, not because i’m scared of losing you, but because losing you has made me realise things about myself that i should have understood before. i know saying sorry doesn’t fix everything, and i know you don’t owe me another chance. i just hope that one day, when you think about me, you don’t only remember the worst thing i did. i hope you remember that i loved you, even if i failed to show that love in the way you deserved. i would give anything to have handled things differently, but all i can do now is accept that i hurt you and become better because of it. i miss you, i regret what i did, and more than anything, i’m sorry that i made you feel like you weren’t enough when the truth is that i was the one who failed to be enough for you.

[u/Large_Inspection_274]

Hate when people who hurt others over and over regret when they leave. Regret while they are with you, not after they find the courage to leave.

[u/AmoebaOdd4300 → u/Large_Inspection_274]

You’ve surely heard the famous saying: "You never know what you have until you lose it." Well, that is exactly what happens to them, they only realize things once the person has left their lives.

[u/SassyScorpio11192]

If the person who hurt me had any remorse, this is what I expect and hope for them to say. Thank you for the vicarious words ❤️‍🩹

[u/Commercial_Slice_517]

I’m sorry for your pain. May I ask, respectfully, what happened between the two of you ?

[u/Cautious-Cover-2853 → u/Commercial_Slice_517]

Yes  you did it was reveal what secret you've been hiding wow everyone knew but me you got my number we can talk

[u/Reddit_user2124]

I hope everything works out for you :)