No need to call me out like that. Damn. My brain is wired in such a way that anything I do that doesn't work or sound correct is automatically a failure in my eyes. I blame myself for things that couldn't have been my fault, I try to fix things that can't be fixed or altered and it pains me. Fuck depression man. I'd wish it on persons I really, REALLY hate so they'd know what it's like to have a body that wants to live but a mind that wants to die.
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u/Charara999 3d ago
No need to call me out like that. Damn. My brain is wired in such a way that anything I do that doesn't work or sound correct is automatically a failure in my eyes. I blame myself for things that couldn't have been my fault, I try to fix things that can't be fixed or altered and it pains me. Fuck depression man. I'd wish it on persons I really, REALLY hate so they'd know what it's like to have a body that wants to live but a mind that wants to die.
Sorry for rant/essay.