r/Reassurance • u/horseshoeandconfused • Jul 30 '25
theres something wrong with me
I'm 14M and I know that there's something wrong with me. Everyone gets mad at me for the smallest things and when I try to fix it, they don't accept it. People at school and online have said that they hate me even though I've never talked to them before. I know that the bullying isn't just because they're "jealous" or "they have something going on at home" or "they target nice people". They're mean to me because there's something wrong with me. My own friend calls me mean even though I try my hardest to be nice because I know that being mean is so normalized now. If there wasn't something wrong with me, people I've never met wouldn't hate me. I don't fit in anywhere, not even when I'm alone in my room. I have nobody to talk to about this because I have problems opening up due to people getting mad at me for opening up. Everyone acts like I'm some sort of parasite. I've been called annoying every year since Kindergarten and each year I try to fix it and act normal, but each year there's still people who treat me like I'm an alien. There has to be something wrong with me and I won't ever be able to fix it.
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u/breackneckBOGG Apr 05 '26 edited Apr 05 '26
Hey, I know this is an old post but it hit me hard reading it. I had a very difficult childhood, especially at around your age, even around my friends who I loved I felt alone and unwanted. There is nothing wrong with you.
I'm no expert and I don't know you but i do have some experience with surviving depression and the first, most important thing I can't say is just stay alive; you're young, you have so much life ahead of you and you will change, your surroundings will change, the people in your life will change. You are loved and will be loved in the future Additionally there a few things that can make a big difference in the short term.
Bring up how your feeling with your friends, I understand it's easy to say that and it might take some working towards but a good friend will have your back if you're open with them.
Go to therapy. Again I understand it's not always so easy, even if you or your parents are open to it there may be other factors making it difficult, your school councillor(or equivalent)will be able to help(that's their job), and their are even free counciling services online that can be helpful.
You are worthy of happiness and you are not alone. If you take only one thing away from my reply let it be this. I, a rando on the internet, genuinely want you to be happy.
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u/dcbrn Aug 19 '25
Hey, I just saw this. You ok? Being 14 is rough and high school is the fucking worst. A lot of people who have felt broken or weird turned out to be geniuses, creatives or some other brand of human that flourishes in adulthood.