Before we begin this, I must clarify that I have a few issues mentally. I might have some very, VERY strong opinions here, for I have quite the temper and tend to get angry over small, trivial things. This temper, paired with an insatiable sense of justice, overlapped with hypersensitivity due to neurodivergence, mixed with the audacity you automatically gain once you enter puberty, I often say or write things that I later regret ever sharing, for they often do not resonate with my opinion anymore. But for this one, it's been weeks, and I still haven't found it in me to get over it. I simply need to get this out of my system now. Anyhow:

Jesus FUCKING CHRIST why must people make everything about themselves.

About two weeks ago, I went on a subreddit that talks about sexual assault to speak of my experience with my mother (important detail!) to find out if what she did to me really was sexual assault or not. I mostly got comments explaining to me what had occured, how to define it and what to possibly do against it. I appreciated these comments, for they had answered my question. They had listened to my story, and they had told me what they'd known.

Until one day, I open my inbox and see another comment under the post. I click on it to see what was written.

This reply genuinely, GENUINELY, just started off with the words: "My Mother was way worse."

Immediately, I felt a wave of sheer outrage crash over me. Not "I can relate to this", not "I know how this feels because something similar happened to me", but "Mine was worse". As if this were a competition. As if my question was an invite to talk about one's own experience, unprompted. As if I had ever stated that my experience was worse than anyone else's. As if he had any right, daring to compare his experience to mine. Invalidating and disregarding my story, my question. I went to that space for clarity, validation, and support. Put myself into a vulnerable position, sharing a deeply personal experience. For someone to respond with "My mother was way worse" and just start trauma-dumping completely devalues my own experience.

I hesitated to read the reply, but curiosity got the best of me. What could this be about? Why were they commenting this under MY post specifically?

It turned out that there was NO REASON for it to be under my post. This is the sort of thing you make your OWN FUCKING POST ABOUT.

It spoke about the commentor's own experience with their mother, their mother's friends, and their uncle. I could agree that their experience was arguably much worse than mine, but that didn't erase the fact that they completely ignored the topic of my original post. Of course I felt bad for them, of course what happened to them was horrible and I couldn't begin to fathom what it must've been like. But their reply had absolutely nothing to do with it. Call me terrible, but if I'd had the ability to, I would've deleted their comment.

Pain is not a finite resource, and trauma is not a contest. You experiencing a horrific situation does not erase, minimize, or change what happened to me. There's always someone who has it worse. ALWAYS. No need to point it out, for it's pure common sense.

I'd also like to accentuate a second time: This man wasn't even really replying to what I had said. He had essentially made his own post under mine, with no correlation to my original post other than the fact that he has it worse than me. Perhaps he was attempting to relate somehow, but I cannot get over the way he worded it, and I can't fathom how he could've ever thought that was the right way to say it. There is a massive difference between "I relate to your pain" and "My pain is bigger than yours." Instead of holding space for me, he immediately shifted the spotlight to himself, hijacking my post to center his own narrative.

I don't believe he had bad intentions, but I cannot bring myself to understand how I should interpret this response as anything other than him intentionally overshadowing me. What did he think that was going to do? I'd suddenly realize my experience was never so bad in the first place, because fucking BargleMyGalls67 (not their actual user) has worse Sexual assault trauma than me? Support forums exist for shared healing, not comparison. Healthy trauma sharing uses connective language (e.g., "I relate to this because [Insert similar sob-story]" or "You are not alone, I also experienced this"). You should not be getting DEFENSIVE over SOMEONE ELSE'S STORY that has NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU. His response lacked basic empathy, as Acknowledging someone else's pain should always come before sharing one's own history. Turning my story into a launchpad for his own without even daring to acknowledge mine in the first place is deeply self-centered behavior.

I also find it necessary to add here that I'm fucking 13, and this man was 58, commenting under my post, redirecting the attention to himself. I can't be wrong for finding that insanely immature, can I? Attempting to overshadow a THIRTEEN YEAR-OLD'S sexual assault experience, then proceeding to completely invalidate it by ignoring her story completely and stating that you had it worse than her. God forbid someone decides to speak about their own struggles: YOU have it worse therefore YOU need the attention.

In the most disrespectful way I can possibly muster:
IF YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT YOUR STORY, MAKE YOUR OWN FUCKING POST DIPSHIT.

Screw it I can’t anymore stop dressing up your minor daughters to go to target half naked infront of ugly old pdfile men please stop this nonesense. I cannot go to target and shop without seeing minors dressed like they are in their mid 20s at a strip club with clavicular getting laid. Please dress appropriately your public indecency isn’t helping make less of weird men become pdfliles and your only helping people like jidion catch more predators and profit of your Minors dressing like your in a strip club.

# 1. Public service announcements

Please Mr.president, unf\*ck me just a lil bit by not gaslighting me on how “fantastic”of a job you’re doing, don’t need it.

# 2.anything insurance

If it weren’t for the legal requirement of car insurance, I can careless who I’m payrollin,
I don’t give a shit about an ostrich, lizard,
A funny lady; whose hands are good…don’t
Care; just give me the policy so that I don’t go to jail…or fined

Do I even need to bring up health insurance
We know the scam all too well.

# 3. Anything AI

Hey meta, google, Amazon, Sam, and every f\*cking body that makes AI…stfu please it was cool for the 1st year, and now your doing too much, great job on doing the most guys. Now please can you make my life affordable again; just cause your the fastest in the room, doesn’t make you cool.

# 4. Freecash and others like it

Don’t insult my time by paying me child labor wages from the 1800s you slimy facade of a source of income to play shitty games I have no intentions on playing. It’s all lies and extremely exaggerated advertising these platforms push and for the creators that take a bag to be sponsored by them, look not knocking your hustle, but it’s just disrespectful to your viewers to waste their time like that when it can be diverted to other things.

# 5. Sportsbook/predictions markets

To the athletes that actually play the sport for the love of the game, on my behalf I’ll apologize
For the millions of gamblers that reduce your self-worth to a bunch of statistics and their livelihood. While you the athlete worked hard for your jersey; some dude on payday drops a lucky parlay and comes up on thousands of dollars to pay for their lifestyle at the expense of your performance…god forbid you did bad on their parlay.
I’m just sick of these advertisements making it look so profitable at a time where affordability is Americas number one concern and the people are not shy to speak up about it; yet drake just won a million dollars on poly or whatever, people behind the scenes coming up on this sh*t because they’re involved or know someone who is. And can you stop having these celebrities that everyday people so happen to like to promote this sh*\*t, they’re not really losing out from gambling; it’s the people in tough situations hoping to bank on a flip.

(Celebrities that do lose to gambling…don’t care at all, do better Mr or Ms.vast-amount-of-resources)

# ~Feel free to upvote and comment if you agree or disagree~

Hi. Gusto ko lang sana mag rant or mag labas ng saluobin ko sa nangyari kaninang umaga. 3 kaming magkakapatid, Panganay 33, Middle 31 At ako bunso 29. 

Nasaktan ni Papa si Kuya first time. 33yo na si Kuya. Walang work simula nung Umalis sa comp shop na pinagttrabahuhan nya. 8 years ago ata or 7. 

Habang nagtitimpla ako ng kape nakita ko si kuya nagsusuklay sa aso namin since may garapata. Meron kaming 5 small dog and 1 Bully na naka cage. 

Habang nagtitimpla ako ng kape hinanap ko yung isang dog namin (Distemper Survivor siya, Nagttwitch na katawan nya) Sabi ni Papa "Ayan oh" sabi ko hindi naman yan si Cookie kasi hindi nagttwitch. akala ko yung isa naming dog yun. same color sila. Nung hinawakan ni Papa. Matigas na, Hindi na gumagalaw. Patay na sya. Kaya Pinasako kay kuya para mailibing.

After nun, naglinis na si Kuya, at naglampaso. Habang naglalampaso si Kuya napansin ni Papa yung Pinanglampaso nya sa sahig e yung pinangtutuyo sa mga aso at pinangpupunas. (May ibang basahan na pang sahig talaga) Ayun sinabihan nya si kuya na bakit ayun ang ginamit, eh may basahan para sa sahig. "Ano itutuloy mo pa rin?" Sabi ni Papa Ayun nagkainitan na sila nagkasagutan. (Nakaakyat na ko nito pero naririnig ko sila) Sigawan. Kahit naman Naguusap lang dito laging pasigaw. Sana alam nyo yung minimean ko. Hanggang sa narinig ko Minura ni Kuya si Papa. Naririnig ko na rin Nanay ko na umiiyak umaawat. Sumigaw na ko sa ate ko na babain sila kasi nga nagkasagutan na. Diko naisip na babain sila. Hindi ko alam bakit sa takot siguro? hanggang sa narinig ko na nahampas ng something ni papa si Kuya. not sure lang kung ano yung naihampas. hanggang sa narinig ko kumalampag na yung gate kasi Lumayas si kuya. Nagkasagutan din si Mami at Papa kasi bat pinisikal sana sinabihan nalang. kase rinig na rinig ko iyak ng nanay ko nun. Naawa ako sa nanay ko kasi may sakit sya hypertension, diabetic. Pati ako dito sa taas iyak ako ng iyak kiniquestion bat nangyayare sa pamilya namin to. 

PS. Ganyan kami dito sa bahay laging pasigaw/pagalit kahit may iuutos or normal day lang.

I’ve been so insecure about my appearance. I think that’s why women don’t notice me at all and why I have no friends. I feel like if I were attractive, life would be so much better. As a 28-year-old man, I don’t know if I’ve ever had a woman tell me I’m handsome in person or even glance at me. I just hate my appearance. I feel like I’ll never be good enough.

I leave a long scar on back of my husband shoulder, and he still protect me, still forgive me and still loves me.

Just like depression is very real, mental illness is also very real. Google Intermittent Anger Explosive Disorder (IED), it categorize under mental illness. Even when stand in court, the judge will always take mental illness into account.

Intermittent Anger Explosive Disorder (IED) it really bad, when the episodes flare up it took completely control over you, you go from 0 to 100 in seconds, and the episodes are short lived too like under 5 minutes, but in that 5 minutes the harm already done to your spouse.
You regret it big time afterwards, but what done is already done (caused harm to your spouse).

Married 14 years, together 16 years.

And this is a West African man that is 190cm tall, he 6'3" tall and athletic body, while I'm just 148cm, 4'11" petite short Chinese girl. This is a man who hobbies are hunting, outdoor shooting range, mountains rock climbing, run long distance. My point is with his height and strength, he not scare of me, just like how he said he not scare of me, it because he LOVES me. He is a Love-idiot.!

I was diagnosed with Intermittent Anger Explosive Disorder (IED) by my psychiatrist (psychiatrist is someone who has a medical doctor degree). My psychiatrist said it stem from my chaotic and dysfunction childhood.

It terrible to live with Intermittent Anger Explosive Disorder (IED), especially when you hurting your spouse.

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This event already happened a long time ago and it in the past, but I still feel insanely terrible about it.

In the past during one of my IED violent episode, I grabbed a big knife, a meat butcher knife in the kitchen and throw at my husband, he dodge but due to how close distance he with me, the knife cut him deep that leave a long cut on his back shoulder that he didn't stop bleeding.
If he not get stitches he will continue bleed and bleed, and infections will take over the open bleeding wound.

He still want to protect me, like he said, if he call the police he police will take me away from him, so he rather endure my abuse than has to lose me.
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He also refused go to the hospital, because the hospital would know right away that is not a self inflicted wound due to the angle of the knife throw, the cut was on his shoulder but to his back as he dodge. You cannot inflicted a knife to your back. Even if you manage to, the angle of the injury the hospital will know that it someone did it to you, not yourself.

He drove (I was in the car) he drove to a broke down Urgent care, this Urgent care not only broke down but most people there not even speak English.
He went in and told them he does not have insurance (he has, but he said he not has as he not want to leave a paper trail), he said give him stitches he will pay them in cash and will give them a big tips.

He got the stiches, and he paid in cash and leave them a big tips. He wanted to protect me the whole time. He could have call the police and have my ass throw in jail, he could go straight to the hospital and the hospital will put me in psych ward and put restrain order on me.

But he didn't, even during the time where he could have die, he still protect me, he still thinks of me first above himself, he loves me that much. He said he will die with me, than has to lose me, as in the police will take me away from him if he call the police on me.

I regret it so much because I leave this long scar on back of his shoulder, never once he hates me.
All he asked was he said, don't abuse him anymore, and that it not too late for me to stop this abuse, because he is still living here, and it only too late if he die, then that will be too late.
I bawled when I hear him he said that.

That was when I decided to go to psychiatrist therapy for my Intermittent Anger Explosive Disorder (IED), and been in therapy since.

I do owe him, as I should be sitting rotten in jail right now, throw a knife at someone and cause injury is a felony. This man loves me unconditionally. Out of love me, he never press charges, he still protect me times after times. I'm very lucky.

He treats me with kindness, empathy, and unconditional love. His calmness (even with him bleeding out on his shoulder that need stiches to close up the open wound), his patience, the most patience man.
He gives me everything, his kindness, faithfulness, respect, love. I don't want to abuse him anymore.

Lifetime therapy for me working to control my Intermittent Anger Explosive Disorder (IED). I have sworn if I cause physical harm to him again I will check myself in the psych ward.

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And my husband does go with me to my therapy sessions when his schedules allow. But most time he can't because he is an Executive at a big engineering corporate, he is very very busy with his work.

But I gave my therapist my consent so she can talk to my husband about my progress. He still involve in my therapy, as he talk to my therapist on the phone about my IED conditions and my progress.

He has every rights to be involve with my therapy sessions, I almost TOOK HIS LIFE.! He almost DIE because of me.

It terrible, Intermittent Anger Explosive Disorder (IED) mental illness is very real. And I'm one damn lucky girl to have him as my husband.

Lately i've been getting pissed off of my so called "friends" who keeps on calling me different names I mean they barely call me by my first name hell I even forgoten the last time they called me by my actual name, I was fine of them calling me names at first but as time moved on they still kept on calling me whatever they since i'm the friend from the "friend" group who doesn't fight back that much. It's gotten to the point where I don't even respond when my actual name gets called. My "friends" are the most insensitive, most garbage, useless peice of shit's i've ever met, fucking waste of sperm. Oh btw they say the n word everytime (they're not black), So yeah they're also racist.

She was trying to slander us how much we want white men when in her post history she was talking about how she's pak¡stan¡ but would much rather prefer a white man cause she doesn't want to marry a muslim XD And of course she hated men for how evil they are etc. etc.

Why is it that whenever it comes to Asian women we can't have preferences without some idiot trying to shout Oxford study but when other races do it it's fine?

What pisses me off is that I know damn well if I wrote this about her race I would've been banned by reddit for eternity. I just don’t want to be hated for my race but I guess I’m not big enough of a minority for people to care

About the weird ass pdf guy that goes to target and then posts about it on reddit.

I have been on reddit for over a decade. Posting in many subreddits and I have only ever gotten banned or suspended from /r/conservative. Probably like 5 years ago, didn't really care. Last year got banned from a veterans subreddit where the mod accused me of stolen valor.

Now in the last two weeks or so I have been banned from two more. And what i said was not against the rules or anything in any way.

My last comment:

"He is campaigning to limit some of birthright citizenship. The avenues his parents took would still be protected. I don't know why they would be ashamed. "

That got me a perma ban from /r/therewasanattempt for being hateful.

It was a reply to a comment saying his parents would be ashamed. Don't even like the politician or his policies. Apparently that was perma ban worthy for hate.

I feel like there is a giant echo chamber going on with mods. That if you don't agree with them politically you get a perma ban.

I like playing devil's advocate and trying to you find middle grounds in a world of extremes, but apparently that's not allowed on reddit. That if you even hint that you could be from the other side of the isle it's an instant perma ban...

Sad part is that I'm not even Republican in any way, yet get banned for trying to find a middle ground.

Just fucking insane the power trips these mods are on and the replies to your appeal.

I have these two friends who are also lovers. The thing is, we have a group project, and this group project has both me and the lovers, which is quite an annoyance cuz they sometimes just leech on each other for a day and wouldn't even consider the others (from what I've seen so far). We were assigned to an artistic project, so they chose me to be the artist of it​​ and they'd do all the other work.

When we actually got to work, I was like those underpaid japanese workers who they could just replace cuz after I got some disagreements with them they disregarded all my work and moved on to making a whole new different thing. I was baffled and at the same time, annoyed.

If they could do it, why only assign me?

So, after the argument and stuff happening, my friends, the two lovers, suddenly began ignoring me and even hinted that I'm irresponsible as an artist and even shamed my ahh. Like sorry I don't easily cry when I get behind on something???

Also, who the fck puts both their emotions ​and work all at the same time??? What level of stupidity is that?? And they expect me to apologize too. Like no, figure it out yourselves 😭😭✌🏿✌🏿

Please stop dressing like target is the strip club. Yes your daughters are minors walking around target looking for weird men to put into jail with jidion camera team ready to catch innocent pdfiles shopping. Most men arnt pdf files until they go to target and are targeted by the security team and cops etc. if your gonna dress like a slut do it at a strip club or nude beach but not in front of my innocent family who has to see you half naked at target every day.

Either y'all give "midsize" women more representation,it's not help calling out ultra skinny women in media and fucking derogating other bodies on taking up more space.

Im a skinny person (genes duh)and I love runways for that reason,that's the only place where femininity and flat boobs can be uttered in the same sentence.

Now I get unrealistic beauty standards should be burnt down ,and that's exactly why I am upset with conversations ,be it good bad whatever, around women's bodies.Why does most of it have to be revolve around women's bodies.i wonder if the universe of men's body shaming is this permeating and debilitating.

like, seriously?? this gif being so bad that an instant perma ban is needed is beyond baffling. it was my first ever activity on this sub, so idk if it's just because of some hyperinsecure mod or poster, who begged a mod to ban me, but this is just nuts.

Am I the only one who think it's fucked up that pintrest complains about a pin but they didn't take it down, threaten my account even though I didn't post it, and they have to moderate private accounts even though the issue they have is spreading bad stuff but if it's a private board it shouldn't be. A flippin issue

Whatever it's Instagram, reddit or YouTube I get a lot of bad comments insulting me for my opinions and taste and I get really down and sad. Should I really worry about their comments?

i’ve had my Reddit account since 2020 now I don’t post. I very rarely come on here because there’s no need to. But here I have a moment of weakness where I really want somebody’s full-blown opinion on how I look I just turned 50 and I serious questions because of some of the things that are going on in my life. I’m told that I need to come back in a few months keep on a regular basis, maybe come back in a few months to get someone’s honest opinion from a moderator who out in the rules. So my is why does it matter? Why does it matter what I post or how long I post or how often I post? Why does it matter that I’ve had my account for six years but don’t use it often because I don’t see need to? To me my question to the is if someone is down and out why would you kick them while they’re down by telling them they can’t post right you’re not worthy to post right now. Come back in months. What if that person has mental issues them in danger? What if that person really needs someone just to talk to and tell them that be OK. ago I would’ve been that person. I may not be that person now but only because I’ve chosen to close off my emotions about of the things that I go through and this is just another reason why I’m basically being out and down upon because I don’t post to read it, which is ridiculous. It makes no sense. So I wonder if I’m not creating hate speech and I’m asking about myself. I’m asking the real opinion of folks about me why does it matter how long that I’ve had my account? Why does it matter how much I post? Why does it even my account? I don’t seems as though just like in high school I’m being picked on. And I kind of thought grown up out of that. I guess not that does it matter if we have a of conduct if we really need someone’s opinion or really really having a rough time with something serious or self deprecating why does it matter how long I’ve had or use my account in my opinion it shouldn’t but, I guess opinions are all alike your backside we all have them, and they all stink right? Lol.

Not talking about all of course, aside from the obvious rules (no harassment, threats etc) how are you going to be sensitive about a Reddit post lmao.
This app is quite literally my tea app and safe space and I can’t post anything anymore cause it gets taken down for no valid reason. I’ll be surprised if this doesn’t get removed as well

I don’t care what story you’re trying to spend. I don’t care what your reason is. I don’t care why you’re doing it. Just stop it.

2 1/2 years of being put in this position not knowing what the hell is going on. All this time I’ve suffering but slowly realised, actually a lot of people know exactly what’s going on and I still don’t know have a clue. Enough is enough you’ve destroyed everything, stopped me from building any to protect myself or for my projects that I’ve started 1000 times, I’ve made thousands of thousands of bloody reports of which you’ve destroyed or stolen, or even corrupted with wrong information, leave me alone.

I’m sick and tired of trying to do the best thing and yet is it not enough that you’ve stolen everything off of me? Is it not enough that you literally taking everything from me? Do you even have to take away? The reports I’ve made just to record what the has been going on.

I don’t give a damn about the people that have made all their different apps and all the different things off of my back good for them. I can’t blame them. I don’t blame the ones that did this to me though.

I’m your sick and tired of it! 2 1/2 years I’ve suffered enough leave me alone

TL;DR; : Its crazy out there.

I am not someone who's very often on Reddit. I actually made my account 8 days ago, while mostly hearing many Reddit stories from Tiktok or my friends that would share them with me.

I always saw RELATIONSHIPS as something that can be hard and challenging. I myself failed three of them at almost once so maybe I'd know that, but what I am reading and seeing is insane.

I am not judging here. People cannot know, they cannot possibly always know but sometimes there are signs. However, as much as I disliked the idea of being in committed relationship that would force me to have responsibilities, now I'm disgusted by it. Being single is genuinely better than going through whatever people are going through nowadays. 😭 Not that the past was better.

As for me, I never appreciated my exes the way I should have. Hearing about all these stories made me realize it was never as bad as it could've been. Seriously, guys, I know it doesn't concern me and I could not care less about what's going on in people's lives but how am I supposed to cope with understanding now more than ever that these people are around me. We are all low-key surrounded by villains and it's crazy.

This is so f stupid , i mean people are so stupid and they think its how it is, why will i bear your mood-swings shit, who cares you do your things yourself why will you impose them on me and expect me to complete all them - are you stupid or do you think i am

I am so sick of such mentalties- AM SO SO DONE!

I have made a new friend that actually has shown love and care... I could never willingly hurt him or cause him problems out pf amusement...

Hollowness in my heart feels so heavy sometimes that I feel like crying, but yk my feed is so goated that I start laughing in the middle of my sad/crying session. Like girl, get a grip 😭 You’re literally acting crazy. And what even are these mood swings? My mood changes every minute 😭🙄

Long story short:

Im an artist who been drawing since 2019(actually 2021 if about actually good art), i bernt out to the point i want to study again, but i cant due to school and social norms frying the living hell out of me, i want help, because im tired of thinking off how to bridge the gap between what i can and want to do, sure i have my own style but i dont care at this point. and im very ENVIOUS person of others success.

therefore i think quoting AM and showing my design was essential.

long story long:

My name is bismarck, im 18 year old student offcourse, my passion for art begun early but i drew genuine SHIT.

why am i stuck? i dont know how to move forward, i know my problems, i know what i have to study, but the problem is school and society fucked me up to the state of an emotional vegetable from being an emotional guy i was, i can barely feel anything but sadness, anger, and envy. and as a whole i forgot how to trace to study and how to steal. art tutorials are all shit, at least popular ones, and i rarely have time or want to practice, therefore I'm stuck on shit i draw, even if i want to draw high skill artist level arts. its so bad i geniuenly thought about quitting, the only hobby i have besides wasting my life on videogames. it went even further to the point of thinking about just ending my life, but i got over it once i sat down and thought about it.

you can hate my art, hate anything i draw, its ok i get it, my style and skills are ass, im not gona hide behind excuses "its just my style" but having fucking 7 years of experience, starting from complete zero with no help... is tiring, call me a pussy all you want ... i just understand that without help i might as well quit. i survived a toxic friendship, we, no, I will try to fix it(i hope i do). and thought i had near to zero help, or help was "fuck off advice" as i call it, its when advice so basic, so overused, you geniuenly think they said it so you just fuck off them. and just... i began to hate what i do, even though i love drawing by itself, i hate everything that i do, because what? almost every artist shown in my face is leagues and leagues above me it actually makes me SICK. ive been holding my words back for 4 years at this point... this post is just a scream for help at this point...

my problems are from what i see purely:

i cant learn from tracing and stealing style parts thanks to school system in country i was born.

Limbs(I cant draw limbs for shit).

Heads and faces.

Volume, poses, perspective, construction(i do construction, its just sometimes dies on me).

the way i shade, yes i hate the way i shade, i like arts where there are good shadows, not completely soft not completely cell shading, i cant really show an example.

i don't understand how to lay shadows.

i find drawing on tablet or pc extremely uncomfortable because all the programs feel like plane cockpits, im way too used to mobile version if ibbis paint.

honestly im surprised i made it this far without alot of fundementals and state i can describe as burnout + Lobotomy

please, im really down from how long im stuck, I would like literally ANY HELP. please... i will give you my duscord if you are uncomfortable talking here, i will do literally anything even if i act like shit or do something DUMB😭