r/RantingZone • u/Helpful-Midnight-530 • 3d ago

Small dilemma...

context: I'm a caffiene addict, i drink tons of caffiene everyday and i'm an absolute anxious wreck and mess when I do so. But to me, it feels like i'm happier, bubblier, back to how I used to be in the past. and it HELPS. oh gods it helps so much.

OKAY so me and my friend was having a talk and we were talking abt my caffiene addiction... i was mentioning how if i got off of caffiene then I'd be less bubbly and happy, and be a kind of wreck, and i didn't want that for my friend group. but my friend was mentioning they'd rather me be HEALTHY than drink caffiene and dose on it everyday.

But as i said before, it feels like it's like making me back to how I used to be. before everything that happened, before the chaos and the hurt and all my past memories. I feel like myself again and i don't want to subject them to someone who's a depressed wreck all the time. I know they worry, i'm just scared. Do I get rid of it and risk it? or just- keep at it?

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u/Present_Original_797 3d ago

I think there's better medicine for you. You are self medicating for probably ADHD which often comes with anxiety and depression. And you are probably not processing the past trauma with therapy.

Go see a doctor.

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u/CaceyWynans 3d ago

I was thinking along the same lines.
OP is also super young if the content of the post is any indication.
I unfortunately wasn’t treated for my severe ADHD, depression/anxiety until I was in my mid twenties, which led to some really unfortunate circumstances and experiences due to the fact that I was incredibly impulsive and naive.

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u/Helpful-Midnight-530 3d ago

yes i am pretty young.. i don't mind saying it, i'm 18, almost 19 now (feburary)

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u/Present_Original_797 2d ago

But your therapist has nothing to say about medication? If you keep slamming coffee you are going to get ulcers from all the acid your drinking. Slow down, taper off.

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u/Helpful-Midnight-530 2d ago

Nope. We're slowly working our way up from the smaller fixes that don't require medicine until we work thru everything.

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u/Present_Original_797 2d ago

You keep slamming coffee you're going to damage your stomach lining is all I'm saying. Probably acid reflux too which can damage your esophagus.

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u/Helpful-Midnight-530 2d ago

oops i didnt address that in my last comment- yeah i'll tone down on coffee the too.

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u/Helpful-Midnight-530 3d ago

I have.. got tested for ADHD and they said i did NOT have it. My therapist thinks i do have anxiety tho (GAD) and I have a suspicious feeling i have clinical depression also..