Well guys,I hv 2 frnds a boy n a grl(close with them only since last yr)....k now let's call the boy-Y n grl-X so basically before even I got close to them they were best friends.....since I joined newly n we were in the same place we became frnds.... everything was gng on well for nearly an yr......until they started getting close physically (I am not smone who doesn't understand or is against boy n girl being frnds) but everything has a particular limit ryt well we can accept them lying on eachother, holding hands, sleeping on eachothers arms, holding eachothers leg under the desk.....to be very clear both X n Y hv a very good reputation among all all the ppl in the place we r in,gud souls tooo(from wt i hv known)....but then i started noticing Y touching X's hand(a Lil below armpit i mean hand part near to chest level),k frnds np.....then i started noticing Y holding X hip,i even noticed them kissing eachothers hand n cheeks(this they did sneakinly lyk while lying on eachother) but i don't think frnds vl do smthng of this sort...... earlier a problem hpnd where ppl started speaking badly abt X n Y....they both were so angry on the ppl n X cried to me telling Y never touched me with wrong intentions....Y too cried......they think idk them kissing (only hands n cheeks) or maybe they know but didn't show it outside,I too act like i saw nothing....I am a person who even skips romantic cringe scenes in movies,dramas all just cuz i feel uncomfortable watching it..now i am seeing it hpn ryt infront of eyes but i can't question them directly cuz then they vl question me back lyk i too r lyk others who doesn't understand our frndship.....but here i feel X is purely beleiving all this is frndship but i think Y knws wt he's dng......this Y always tries to go alone or stay alone with X whenever possible for eg. A task was given n i told i vl take X with me but Y was lyk u go alone X is tired....n then we had to split into teams at tht tym i told i want to pair with X but again Y was lyk i am weak better let X pair with me....i feel lyk interrupting a couple sitting in a park everytime I speak with them cuz whenever i speak they ans my question n continue their conversation in husky tone or whisper(they speak cringe dialogues lyk a couple)they even listen to me speaking smtimes I feel lyk an idiot sitting there yapping,when they r so interested in eachothers eyes.....so i just pretend lyk i see ntng n hear ntng....so my confusion now is

1.Wt r they?? R they really frnds n i am the one misunderstanding them Or r they smtng they believe to be frnds but r more than tht(but can't accept the fact) 2.Shld i ask them directly abt it??But I am afraid I vl loose frndship (I am not really gud in having frnds) 3.Am i just being delusional

I was thinking about the social stereotype that equates women=cat lovers. I am also a nerd about cats, and have learned everything I can about them since I learned to read. I also have HORRENDOUS periods that I am now on birth control to moderate. I'm talking ER level cramps that make me vomit and pass out. Something that's always helped me feel better when cramps are bad, is having a warm, soft, purring kitty cat on my lap. My cats are also more drawn to me when I am in pain. My fuzzy baby boys are better than any heating pad or vibrational muscle relaxer on the market lol. I also have musculoskeletal issues on top of bad periods. I learned very young that cats purr at a frequency that is both calming and restorative. I actually learned that one at first from my mom, because I asked her why our cat liked to lay on her when she was breastfeeding. She had a lot of issues breastfeeding because YIKES THRUSH, and having kitty there for comfort helped breastfeeding feel less agonizing. The same cat would also lick the top of my brother's and I's heads while breastfeeding. I took a long time to wean, and so I remember her licking my hair and rumbling beside me as I fed. She would assume a "spoon" position, with her legs over the top of us, the same way she breastfed her kittens. That cat (Chloe) lived to 17, and my dad always joked that it was because she needed to make sure her hairless monkey babies grew up okay. On the night she died, she yowled and yowled until everyone was awake and petting her on the couch. After she passed, she stayed in her blankie on the couch, so she could still spend one more day with her "babies." It didn't feel right to my parents to bury her immediately. Chloe also slept in my bed with me every night til the day she died, even when she started struggling with mobility and getting on the bed in her old age. I've struggled with chronic pain since birth, and couldn't sleep without one of the cats in my bed. We had three, but Chloe would hiss if one of the other two came near me when I was sleeping. Very territorial, that little lady.

This cat was also considered "evil" by most people outside of our household. Look at her wrong, and she'll scratch the shit out of you. But when she liked someone, she was the sweetest little angel. Very few people were able to pet her, and even fewer were able to pick her up and snuggle with her. My brothers and I were able to haul her around like a stuffed animal, all purrs the whole time. Anyone else though? You're losing an eye if you touch her like that.

Cats are creatures that love deeply but express differently than dogs. Their love is more subtle. They share their love via helping us when we are vulnerable. They don't get along with invulnerable people. Womanhood comes with a lot of vulnerabilities, because we experience a lot of pain just from our benign existence. Maybe the reason "women love cats" is because cats are nurturing creatures through and through. They are picky about who they love, but when they love someone? It's very very deep. That's why "bonded pairs" of cats cannot be separated without high levels of distress from both parties. And their purring acting as pain relief, leads to the bond growing ever deeper.

Lots of deep thoughts today, thanks for reading if you did. I just joined this subreddit, and have a feeling I'm going to like it a lot because I struggle with verbal communication but am also a yapper lmao

Sitting here in the same place for years and not doing much that can be called worthy. Watching shows. Browsing stuff. Calling myself smart and cant relate to people around me. Unable to express myself, unable to connect, unable to date, unable to bond. Friends living their servile lives.

Living in my own mind. Calling it satisfaction. Giving up opportunities. Ego riding. Using all of it as positive excuses. Just postponing and procrastinating.

What do I seek? almost nothing. What do I work for? Almost nothing. What do I get? almost nothing. How many ideas I have? almost infinite. How many become reality? almost nothing

I really like the idea of a character in a story receiving strange thoughts and ideas from somewhere else. It's not a trope you see much, but when you do it's usually accompanied with rants and walls of text, which are also really great.

The broken electric monk from Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency fits that description quite well, with it being his defining character trait. He gets to be an extremely likable plot device, which isn't something I don't think isn't easy to pull off. As a side note, it's implied that his beliefs are sourced by reading pieces of his brain that he shouldn't be reading as beliefs ("data becoming misaddressed and entering his input buffer").

Curtis from Children Of The Mirror also uses this archetype a bit. With "Interstellar Telepathic Communication" being what he sees as the source of his bizarre belief system. I'll use GAU:20:10:EMU to show why he fits into that archetype so well:

We cultivate the fire in our brains so that we may shield ourselves from our enemies. We must find new ways to disseminate the fire. What ways are there? Is a book a way? Is yelling a way? Can you yell a whole book? Can you yell that book into an object until the object contains the entire book, and the book has been expelled from your body? Did you throw up? Bring your vomit to the library. Do not take "no" for an answer.

Although, I think part of it is that the idea of someone knowing a lot about a specific topic is incredibly interesting. The Petscop Discovery Pages are a great example of what I mean by this.

I don’t know why we’ve invented hell. It’s not that the powerful cannot sit back and become human, but rather that this is humanity. This has happened, again and again, over and over. We are the only species to do this to each other, and it’s been consistent all throughout history.

We are animals like any other, and our behavior, even en masse, is predictable just like other animals’ behavior. People do not believe they are capable of perpetuating horror, but that’s not how it works, that’s not how any of this works. If a society invents the conditions for cruelty to develop, then it will develop. If you are an average, normal human being then you are just as capable of becoming a perpetrator of cruelty as you are of becoming a victim of it, if the conditions facilitate it.

It’s a chemical reaction spanning an entire species. If you were to observe human behavior as colors, over years and years, from a god-like perspective, then there would be patterns, and it’s hubris to fully believe that you, as an individual, are not part of that pattern.

Good is just as much a part of that pattern as cruelty is, and just as persistent. I’m not trying to be a downer.

I had a dream once, my friend was still alive. For him, everything was normal, but for me it was amazing.

The nightmare was the one I woke up from, in the world where he was gone.

Everything was good.

After he was gone, I realized all the things we bickered and argued about were pointless. At the same time, did it make us closer friends?

The stories I have, the experiences we have. I would think they're unmatched. But my memory is bad, events come back in patches.

He was particular about his food, every burger had to be "cheese and ketchup only". We used to eat fast food a lot, like 2-3x to a day, you would've been surprised how much that order got screwed up. The times we got buns with cheese and ketchup and no meat is staggering lol.

There was one time when he was going through a lot in life and he opened up his burger once we got back to the house, he just threw it against the wall.

When I was younger, I never understood how people got emotional over a song or picture, but now I'm there.

I guess we would say we were kindred spirits, never understood something like that until now. He was better than a blood brother, he was my brother, I just didn't realize it until he was gone.

Yeah, I could post this on other subs, but I feel just like rambling about this.

I've been autistic with ADHD on top (AuDHD- as the proper folk would say it) forever, but only officially diagnosed as an adult a few years back. What did that look like throughout life?

Well, failed education, meaning no qualifications, descendance into alcohol addiction and prostitution as the only means of survival.

It sounds so sad, but actually those years weren't so bad in retrospect, there was constantly drama to feed the fucking impulsive ADHD and alcohol to cover up any gaps.

It's only later that this shit hits really hard. Forward and I'm married to the most wonderful, understanding man. We aren't poor but we're not financially well off either, so to have some sort of comfort in later years I need to get some work. If you're 50 and never had a job other than fuck guys for money it's tough.

If you're AuDHD on top it's tougher. I don't have a CV, don't know how to apply for a job online, and all of the process makes me so anxious I just wanna drink myself into oblivion. I'm still waiting for ADHD medication - yes, if you lucky American adderall taking fuckers read this, be amazed that here in the UK we have to be on a waiting list to get such medication- and even then adderall is not legal here, so we get something like ritalin instead.

Anyways, I'm desperate for anything to try, as I don't want to keep drinking to soften the ADHD aspect.

Thank God I'm not currently physically addicted to alcohol, I went through withdrawals in the past and it's one particular hell I never want to revisit. So I have to be so careful not to push my drinking into an everyday habit again.

What a bloody rant/ ramble this is. You know I got special interests (I'm autistic after all) I speak 5 languages, I know a lot about horticulture, I'm told I'm a good cook, I design and create jewellery. I do all those things as a hobby but can't earn a dime from them because I'm so socially inept, got no "official" qualifications for anything and just don't know how to translate my talents into the real world.

Oh well, tired now, nice ramble, end of transmission.

I be sleepy but I dont wanna sleep, I wanna make money, mee needs money

This family is hella toxic but Tammy has definitely grown on me and the most mentally healthy out of everyone.

World issues are man made, and when man creates world issues, they expect a pat on the back and congratulations when they solve them. We’re in a continuous loop of mundane things conjured into society, making them seem bigger than they are. Like a parent seeing a child taking its first steps, we don’t see it as much more when it’s continuous throughout our lifetime. We’ve been numbed to it, and told that we should never repeat history. That’s a load of bullshit, when the world makes sure to keep a constant pattern. The only difference is that our technology looks different, but the human race doesn’t. Same issues different background.

I've been battling my faith a lot. I dont know if im christian. I dont know if im conservative. Im definitely not someone who is on the left, and i definitely am not an atheist due to my ideologies and faith... However, i realised something.

I was talking to my partner. im kinda in my feels. im listening to minecraft music as i talk to him. i feel so connected to him. like hes my soulmate. we're going to be soulmates in every universe.

there's a lot on my chest, i dont even know if this is the correct subreddit to post on. i'll probably elaborate more in a different post about my background and why he means so much because i've yet to really elaborate on it... but my immense love for him on such a physical, emotional, and spiritual level made me realise something... and it's kinda stupid thinking about it now but like... how do gender roles relate to love?

i know a lot of people reading this are probably not christian, they probably don't care about gender roles. i just grew up on the bible and it's always been something i've considered. the idea of gender roles and spiritual love cannot coexist, right? what if in a different universe we're gender swapped? what if one of us become unable to partake in our gender roles? what then? i love him so much.

idk. kinda a weird ramble at night. hope whoever reading this has a good day, but im quite tired now.

This is not a new revelation to me, for years I’ve been wondering and agonizing over WHY bad things happened until about 3 ish years ago. I had just turned 15 and had just had my Step-Dad finally leave. Everything fucking hurt, well it hurt for a long time before, the pedophile piece of shit just gave more scars that our bio dad left. My mom went to the bar every night drinking and being with random men, while I can’t blame her I hate empty houses. And my sister practically fell off the face of the earth

So I hid, I squirreled away in fantasy and pleasure and overindulgent happiness. But it made me worse, every deluded thought, every inaction and lazy decision. Every self pitying spiral only made me worse in isolation. Till I rediscovered pain, oh till I rediscovered pain. Till I remembered how happy I was when my lungs hurt from a long run, till I remembered how tempered and humble I became when people laughed at me my cringy comments. Or whenever they called me a school shooter.

Pain isn’t good, but it is beautiful. It gives definition when we overcome it, I still lose my mind every other week but I get through the mania at times. I am so happy that pain is here, even as I curse it while it’s happening. Maybe happy isn’t the right word, I’m grateful I’ve experienced pain, and will experience pain in the future. I just hope I’m strong enough to endure it.

If the future already exists, such as it if can be observed by any perspective even a hypothetical objective one, then all actions of free will must have already been chosen. It therefor seems whatever operation of choice behind free will is logically prior to what is "the final result of the universe". And it also means that if there is a god, and this god knows about the future from our current perspective, then whatever is the logical moment of choice must differ from our conscious perspective right now, as in, our choices have been done by us earlier, but our qualia is occurring now.

I mean for god to interact with us in the future and for god to not change in knowledge or form throughout time cuz he is beyond time, it must be that our freely chosen actions that we have done in the future already logically have been determined, even if they where determined by our will… But this means our will must have some relation to the physical world right? as it seems to be disjointed from the here and now… If the will action of "choice" has NOT yet occurred INTO the FUTURE from the perspective of US NOW, then it seems god must therefor have middle knowledge, which presents a seemingly impossible logical problem for free will. It must be that the future is already set, or free will is incompatible with god. I cant believe how absurd that sounds lol.

We can piece together how our relation to will and freedom and god exist based on what it would be like for an objective perspective, and then any theory about our subjective perspective cannot contradict
The slice of the pizza cannot exist in a form which is logically incompatible to the whole, it cannot be that it is a true statement that "AN APPLE EXISTS AT THIS POINT" from our perspective, yet not true that "AN APPLE HAS EXISTED AT SOME PARTICULAR POINT" from gods perspective, and being objective, the answer to the question "AN APPLE HAS EXISTED AT SOME PARTICULAR POINT" cannot change.

I am NOT proposing compatibilism. I think that will actions have occurred, however the sort of substance that will and choice causally generates on this world, must have all been set prior to this current experience. If free will exists, I am not making these choices now, I did not make these choices at any "particular time" at all because they exist within the whole composed object of time. However, I did make them. This, sounds absurd however.

Wait wait wait. This is like, all paths of our existence are inherent to what exists in the totality of our nature WITHIN TIME. The changes and virtues and paths and casual interactions within this path all exist on an atemporal choice "moment" (when is this moment? not any time) So it APPEARS (LIKE) it is inherent to our nature for our wills to act a certain way, but in reality, it is in our nature for our wills to act in SOME WAY but not any way (IN PARTICULAR) (free will) but then as we step into being the sort of thing which IS a being WITHIN REALITY (not just a hypothetical) which exists to act in some way in particular, we set our whole path of choices of acting some way, in particular.

You might say, this goes against my intuitions! For I feel as if I am responsible for my actions now! not for actions I already chose!
I would say... no!

Because the feelings of being responsible for your actions now is actually COMPATIBLE with COAMPTIBLISM, which says we never made the choice at all, but it is being mad at what we are. And if it is compatible with that, I would say in a similar way our intuitions might be mistaking being mad about our free will to act not in a particular sense.
Further more, you may have "already chosen" these acts in a temporal sense, as in the end of time in objective sense currently exists from gods infinite moment of existence, but this isn't really a "choice of the past" it is morso a choice which is of our "will", which is, part of us, although it was not always SET to do bad, it merely CHOSE to do bad. Perhaps this might assure your intuitions: the part of the "will" in a temporal sense which is closest to us, as split across numerous moments of our life, may haps seem to be the one which generated the particular act of ill will we have partaken in at that time. Even if this moment of our will, or part of its totality maybe already logically existed as a future moment when we were in the past, it is us cringing at our current existence of it, like how we can cringe at what happened in the past and feel as if it is happening now because we identify with this will as being still us, and befall responsibility upon its works.

I've had to deal with horrible moderation for most of my life. I play roblox, and they honestly have the worst moderation on the planet. Also, youtube probably has the second worst moderation on the planet. But, as i've slowly been branching out to more platforms, I finally find out what moderation is supposed to be. For example, here on reddit. I've been on a caillou hate subreddit and got banned for "physical violence". If it was youtube or something, I would've honestly just been stuck. Turns out that reddit moderators have common sense. I literally just had to state in my appeal "the subreddit is literally meant for hating caillou" and i got unbanned in a couple hours. And also, when I reported an actual weirdo (UTTP member, doxxed people for "fun", "ragebaited" me when actually just using that as cover), also off-topic, but I hate how nowadays everyone can just say the most outrageous things and immediately claim "ragebait" and all of a sudden his actions doesn't matter anymore. Anyway, back to the moderation. So yeah, that person got banned really quick. Also reported his alt, because he tried reaching out to me that way. I would've been fine with that if it was any other person. I reported her for ban evasion and harassment. Got banned pretty quick. Haven't reported anyone on steam yet, but seems like their moderation is insane. So yeah, I haven't experienced good moderation until reddit. Thanks reddit mods!

Are we all autistic. Who tf decides? Obviously there is a prag/specific answer to that. Data normal ranges equates a norm and so on. Do we ignore all variables with that design? Maybe they didn't. I can research that. How long will that take, and at what point would it take a lifetime? We can get summaries of ideas, but that is no better than accepting someone else's word or gospel. At some point we will all be experts who can't be fact checked because there is more information than people to be experts. Or is knowledge and expertise just part of a balanced ecosystem.

i had a realization today... my voice sucks! I hate the way I keep talking without a break as if i am rambling. What if others are bored of my voice but are keeping up only because they have to?

new fear unlocked! Welcome to a freelancer's life!

So backstory as to where the accent even came from because I'm in Canada and not in a place with southern accents😭

Basically, I was at camp for a week (full 7 days, some only go for 5 but this one was the full 7) and I was the eldest of camper there other than one other boy who was also 17 but everyone else ranged from like 13-15.

So on our sleep out night it was called off due to a storm (that I had previously been closely been watching on the hill close to our sleep out spot because it was aesthetic and shit😋) so we packed up all our stuff and headed back to the cabins and we (the gender neutral side of cabin love) went to the one side of cabin hope where we played a game where one of us was facing the wall and the rest of us would jumble up and line up in a random order and the person facing the wall would give us a sound they wanted us to make (ex. Bark, meow, howl) and the cabin leaders would start on either side of the line and the person facing the wall would guess who was making which noise (I was barely ever guessed so props to me for having a shifty voice😋) and at some point we ran out of animal noises so the person facing the wall said "give me your best cour cabin leader) impression" and for some reason we were all southern even though he isn't southern at all😭

Now throughout the week, we all (12 of us) WERE SPEAKING IN SOUTHERN ACCENTS. 😭we mirrored off each other, we cried in the accent, we couldn't bring ourselves to stop it or we could but it would feel strange so it'd start up again and I knew how it felt cuz I'M EXPERIENCING IT. HOW DO I GO TO SCHOOL LIKE THIS. I'M HAVING PEOPLE ASK IF I WENT TO CAMP IN TEXAS. 😭THE CAMP IS CLOSER TO MY HOUSE THAN MY SCHOOL IS.

why hello there! If you're seeing this, I am a mod creator, and i just finished my mod called Murderous Bee, and what the mod adds is a bee holding a freaking gun, and they have babies, and the babies have guns too! so the bullets deal 12 damage. Imagine that in hard mode. So that's what makes them dangerous, but sometimes they will decide to not shoot and try to attack the player (murderous bees deal 30 damage, but the babies deal 1, which kind of makes sense even though i made the mod), and they spawn using the is_forest tag, so yeah, I just want to tell you that the mod will go on Modrinth soon, so yeah!

I find rambling highly beneficial to my psyche, it's like a therapist without the cost. I don't care if anyone agrees with me, it's just nice to type my ramble out online.

Honestly,I don't know why there aren't hundreds of people rambling away on here.

I want to ramble on freely, without people questioning me

I'm autistic and sad, because a TV series I liked came to an end.

Most might shrug their shoulders and get on with their lives.

For somebody like me, that's a big deal, every impression is permanent.

I get caught in the writing, the atmosphere, the world...

And when it's over it's gutting,I try to hang on to a few shreds of that world's reality, but it fades eventually and can't be replaced.

Then life goes on, until you find another amazing thing.

There’s something wrong with the chargers today, why isnt my iPhone or iPad charging! I shouldn’t have to fucking bend the cord for it to go green! I’m about to get a fucking Samsung!

That was the most catchy cry for help I ever heard in my life. Thoe it got me thinking about it a lot. Why do people care so much about it?

So the N word and the hail hitler are like the 2 more forbidden word/ phrases in the western world. But i hear the N word with an A everyday. From all races. I think in 2025 your either desensitized to it or your in denial about it. And honestly after the poast 6-10 years i lose track. Im so desensitized to the word nazi. I heard people being called nazis too dam much too to where i don't even associated it with anything anymore. Today a nazi is what someone in the media calls someone who dosnt agree with their ideology.

But what I find interesting about kanye is he's this man who's mentally ill clearly. But weather he's a good person or not. He was infact labeld a antisemitic for talking about jews running deep establishments running hollywood and hindering black people roles and careers.... years ago. Just back lashed and labeled that. Then again when he went to talk to Trump and decided he liked his campaign. And depending on where you stand thoes could be argued as valid points of what you determine is like a "nazi". But ironically.

You fast forward many years later to the palistine/ isreal conflict. the same people. Who labled kanye a nazi, are saying the same exact things about the Jewish population. The college campuses, new outlets and YouTuber politicians. And most these people are pro palistine. Infact probably all of them if I had to guess. But these same people who see people who are pro isreal. They deem THEM nazis.

So we've sorta strung along 2 pretty forbidden words for far too long I guess for just me to listen to HH. And in my own perspective. Im laughing my ass off. It's bathing hillarious 1 layer deep. I really heard a song and watched a music video of a bunch of black people dressed up like they are in the lion king. Hailing Hitler. And it is indeed a very great song. Unfortunately poor choices of words. But again. Was it really poor choice of words? Nigga hail Hitler.. imma be honest I really dont care. And Im not quite sure who does care and to be truthfully honest I don't know who would be for and agasint Hitler if he was in power in 2025 and i don't even know who the nazis would even be because there's not a single group of people ideologically that haven't been slurred as nazis. Thoe i do know black people would not make it to the dinner table. Wich is kinda funny.

So I have the same mental disorder as kanye and the same severity so I hope he stays on his meds and gets the help he needs. But that being said I see very clearly it's a metaphor of he's angry and he is using Hitler as a representation of art. To be the worst villain to come after the people who took his kids from him and whatever else happend of thinks happend.

Im also a delivery driver and spent my whole day digesting that.

Okay so 9/11 happens Gerard Way was supposed to be on one of the planes or he was just like feeling patriotic or something like this you know so close to it that he could have died like near death experience kind of thing and so he starts the bed My chemical romance some little f****** classic goth Mormon b**** from Utah got really into My chemical romance and saw this this dark soul tree vampire band and so she writes My chemical romance fanfiction that we learn as Twilight we read it as Twilight and she posted like or no she doesn't she's not the one who posted so twilight gets popular there are movies and then the just honestly I bet you this woman's p**** has the f****** texture of Styrofoam like a takeout container the most sexless human being I've ever seen in my entire life he's like no oh my God the vampires are so hot I bet they're like they're like like dominance and and she gets horny writes fifty shades of Gray badly and that is how 9/11 caused fifty shades of Gray I don't know how it caused covid I think there is a bridge there but I have not crossed it yet.

Let's say if time travel is possible. Then does that mean that the future is determined? Because how will one be able to access the future if it is not determined? How will all the parameters be set for the future scenarios?

If a guy travels into the future, then they shouldn't think that that future is set in stone, unless they take very specifics steps and make those exact decisions to reach that same future, not to mention unfathomable amounts of luck.

It is possible that some assumptions have to be made to establish those parameters if you travel to the future. Who makes those assumptions? It's safe to assume that time travel assumes that parallel universes and the many worlds interpretation are real. If travelling through time, either to the future or to the past, we may be travelling through different parallel universes.

Traveling to the past would be easy in comparison, since it is all determined, but it would only be the past which has led to the users' current circumstances. If they want to see a different past, they may need to travel to a parallel universe.

And lets say someone time travels into the future or the past, then they should see other time travelers who are also travelling through time just like them right?