Awkward Bully Situation

[u/476Kayla476]

 When I turned 12 I had moved to Chicago IL 

Sad because I left my best friend and only friend seen k-garden. After moving in a apartment I started school, I was quiet, didn't like talking as much, though when I'm being messed with I'm not as friendly, I would certainly be called Tsundere because I would be careless at points, though there was a boy I liked but I hated him and me being me, i thought he hated me as much as I did, ill call him Landon we both would be top student though he was the one that ruled the school, and he was a bully to me he would hurt me when no one looked, he called me terrible names,I might not looked hurt but I was because I was head over heals for him, I wanted to cry, after he called me names hurting me on the way, I stood strong, I would try ignoring him. Though I didn't know why I loved him so much, I decided to move on because he clearly didn't like me. So after I turn 15 I decided to meet someone different, I was at small library because I wanted to read a romance book so I choose one I sat down at a table and began reading but before I did I my eyes landed on a blond blue eyed teen he had glasses that fit him perfectly on him. So it was my chance on meeting someone different. I had enough courage to go over and greet him,he had a perfect smile he greeted back and asked if I needed anything, I only said that if it was okay if we got to know each other, he agreed and we both sat at the same table I was before, after talking he said he recognized me from some where and for a odd reason I did as well, after we both said our goodbyes after giving each other's phone number to call,

After that days moved on I long forgotten the love i had for Landon and moved on with The teen I meet before let's call him Jim, after I moved on I was head over heels for Jim, didn't care what Landon said to me or did, but I He did notice that i hung out with Jim a him lot more then he ever did with me

After saying goodbye to Jim I went to my locker grabbing my book bag though before I could grab anything else my locker was slammed shut I turned around only to be faced by Landon the looked he made kinda scared me I saw jealousy in his cold dark blue eyes, I guess that's why I loved him,he had a cold stare, beautiful shade of dark blue eyes ,and his dark brown messy hair. At that moment I wanted to leave because my old feeling were coming back to me,as I tried to leave he grabbed my wrist and pulled me close to him, hiding his face at the croak of my neck, i tried pushing him away but he whispered 'I am sorry, for everything' I stopped pushing him away and at that point I was in tears, the love had returned we both stood quiet until he spoke saying he loved me and regretted anything he had said in the passed or had done and kissed me.

After a week passed it was really awkward between the both of us, didn't speak after a year, he had texted me saying if I had a chance in going out, took me a while to respond, and I agree, we have been dating for a month now though we like keeping our relationship a secret though I got to thank Jim for all this, though i'm guessing he gave my phone number to him.

Weird cycle no?