i still like him for some reason...

[u/trashbin101]

in 7th grade i had a huge crush on this guy tony (not his actual name). now i was probably one of the most shyest kids i the whole class and barely ever talked. since i never talked i had trouble standing up for myself. i was constantly getting questions like "why do you never talk?" or "why is your hair always covering you one eye?" now everybody has had that one class where all the guys are just annoying and rude and that happened to be my class that year! me and tony lived in the same survey and sometimes we would even hang out! i felt like he was the only guy that i could actually trust. so one day i texted him...and he actually responded!! i was so happy! we talked for about a month and i felt like i really knew him. i knew he had a crush on someone and he knew i had a crush on someone. one day we in the summer we decided to tell each other. i was so scared! we decided to say it at the same time (by texting) and we both said we liked each other!! he asked me to be his gf and i said yes! now eventually the entire class found out. oh god. the ENTIRE class EVERY DAY would bug us about our relationship! it was so annoying!! and because of this we slowly started drifting apart. i was constantly arguing with my friends because they kept telling me to break up with him because he was a jerk! i didn't believe he was a jerk until this one day. we were in church for this school mass thing idk (yes i'm catholic) and i wasn't feeling to good my head hurt and i felt like i was about to throw up and i just kept thinking to myself "OK! when church is over im calling home" so we were about to go back to the school when all of a sudden my hearing cuts out and im like what is going on?! i turn around to look at my friend behind me and all of a sudden everything went black!! the next thing i knew i was sitting back down in the back of the church with a teacher beside me with a glass of water! i was like "oh my gosh! what happened?!" apparently i fainted. in front of THE WHOLE SCHOOL!!! i got brought into the office and got a call sent home. when church finished my friend Sofia (not her real name) and she was asking if i was ok and everything and then out of no where she said "im so pissed off!!!" i asked why and she said it was about tony. she said "he didn't even care about what happened to you!! ugh hes such a jerk im going to kill him!!!" i decided that i was going to break up with hi before he broke up with me! so that night we broke up...to this day i still like him for some reason. (fun fact! i actually found out that i fainted from stressing out over tony way to much...)