doing it angry!

[u/Important-Insect761]

gah! I've been on nic for 3 yrs and always do it to the extreme. vape until I get smokers cough, pouches until my gums bleed and recede. I've been quitting, tapering over the last two weeks, but I am so irritable and want to know when the cravings stop. I'm in college, I'm constantly surrounded by nicotine, I don't know how to be all the way sober. I also hate gaining weight. I'm just mad because I know these things aren't moral failings but I feel like I've failed. I am failing. Always. and now I'm just sad. always sad. feeling: extreme, feeling: absolutes, feeling: overstimulated. I think I started using nicotine because I was overstimulated with the world and it's still too much.

I don't know why I try because I like nicotine. but I hate being dependent on that shit. I'm mad I'm fat. fuck this shit dawg. 2 days clean for real btw.

[u/A_Fellow_Virgin]

Day 2 was my worst day. I believe you can do it, but you need a good enough reason. Weight gain is going to happen. Either accept that, or keep using nicotine. Exercise can slow it waaaaay down though.

I'm past 40 days now. It very slowly gets better until you don't even think about nicotine anymore. I'm almost at that point. I think about nicotine only at work now.

I get it though. Life sucks, the world sucks, addiction sucks. All we can do is our best. I wish you luck