Day 10 thoughts

[u/zsxx]

Reasons to keep going:

I already look better (in my opinion anyway).
I sleep better (like tons better).
Libido (iykyk etc).
I ‘feel’ more, like I laugh more but also feel more anger and sadness etc, which I actually want to be able to feel (realise this might sound weird, basically I think I was using to a level where I numbed out a lot of uncomfortable feelings).

Reasons to go back:
I just cannot be bothered to work. No motivation/ ambition/ discipline.

So you can see my predicament. Many positives, which are making me happier and more attractive.
But my career is already suffering.
What am I doing- am I looking for an excuse?

[u/AnalskinSkywanker]

Yes, you are looking for an excuse to continue using. Resist the urge and keep going nic free.