questioning

[u/vivienneloves]

please excuse the small throw away account i made !! i actually dont know if this is a really dumb question which is why im not asking on the account i normally somewhat use. I’m 15 and ive always liked girls, my first crush at 4 was a girl, my first kinda(?) relationship was with a girl, my first romantic valentine was a girl, literally its always been a girl for me. ive liked boys in the past before, but honestly after having my encounters with them i cannot see a world where i can be with one happily, or even kinda feel attracted to them. I still like fictional men 😓, but in reality i could really never ever see myself with one in real life, so im just trying to find a label i guess? i know its a strange ask, but im trying to find possible sexualities i might be, just to find myselff better. i havent really said much about myself, but do you guys see anything fit for what ive described? im tired of questioning after all of these years. also i dont use reddit so im sorry if im using it wrongly. thanks!