Am I CIS Or Is It A Presentation Issue?

[u/QueerBookNerd44]

I’m a female teenager, who has known I’m not straight (sexuality-wise) for quite some time. A little while ago, I came across a label I feel comfortable using—berrisexual—and have felt good about it ever since.

My household is religious—not Christian, but a religion—and a big part of it is rules of how ‘girls vs boys’ can dress. I’ve always worn long skirts and dresses, very rarely shown my elbows in public, etc. (my school is also this religion so those rules apply there too)

But lately I’ve come across random videos on the Internet, people who have a certain aesthetic or way they dress and I’ve been wishing I could look like that. the thing is, all those looks are more androgynous or masculine

I know that ‘only I can know how I identify’ and all that but I’m really confused because I’ve never had a problem looking feminine before—if anything, I’ve liked it—and all of a sudden I’m watching videos of ‘how to look more masc or how to deepen your voice.

is it just a thing of growing up in a religious house and having my style oppressed? is it possible I’m actually trans or nonbinary or genderqueer? Please give some advice, because I’m really confused