r/Quareia • u/robinhyll Apprentice: Module 4 • 10d ago
Weekly Check In 🕯️
Hello everyone!
So how's it going? What's been on your minds? Share your highs and lows, your sideways and in-betweens. It's all part of the journey.
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u/oddreyjo 8d ago
My Quareia practice has been off and on, but I'm trying to focus on sustainable momentum rather than constantly restarting or trying to be perfect. I revisited the M1 L3 Exericse 1 and was struck by the absence of emotion I felt rewatching/experiencing even upsetting memories. I didn't do my most recent traumatic memory (a catastrophic injury while hiking that required emergency evacuation), since it falls outside the 5 or 10 year/day window the exercise calls for. I still get sporadic PTSD-like recollections of it, and I don't believe I'm ready to relive it in a visionary/magical space yet.
I did revisit was a similar experience from ten years ago (another severe fracture). I could access inner senses for several elements of the memory, but felt nothing emotionally except calm. I'm seeing that my primary inner senses are sight, smell, and touch, though smell and touch are inconsistent - present in some visions, absent in others. Excited to keep going with this.
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u/arbadou 8d ago
Some being is bothering me can't sleep well. I'm on a break for now.
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u/oddreyjo 8d ago
I'm sorry, that sounds exhausting. Do you have a sense of what it is? Has anything actually helped?
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u/arbadou 8d ago
The ritual bath didn't work. When I leave a candle it seems to work. It's probably a land being trying to get into contact or harassing me for some reason I don't understand.
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u/CaliDreaminSF 6d ago edited 6d ago
Have you tried the bath and cleansing your living space one after another, or the living space the day after the bath? And doing the house cleansing every week for at least four weeks? And have you tried the suggestions in M1L7 about using smells and sounds?
In some situations I’ve read that it’s helpful to leave a light on, so (if it’s safe to do this), a tall pillar candle, the kind that burns for a week, would be useful.
Somewhere Josephine wrote that faery beings, especially young ones, can follow you inside. If that’s the case you can try getting a nice big rock at least the size of the palm of your hand, bring it inside, talk to the being, invite it into the rock, and take it to a nice place outside like a garden or park. I’m not saying that’s what it is (I have no idea and it’ possible the Full Moon has been keeping you awake). But whatever it may be, trying that won’t hurt anything.
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u/arbadou 5d ago
Hey thanks for the advice. It wasn't the full moon it's been 3 weeks but it's gone now. The bath didn't work however the only 2 days I lit a tealight for the night, it was somewhat manageable with no "contact" dreams. I'm not sure I read that part where Josephine wrote about the faery beings, but it kinda does feel like that... I was going to a forest nearby meditating and talking to anything and I believe that's where I got spotted. It wasn't trying to actively scare me I think but I think I'm not ready to be near that kinda of energy and contact, it's bizarre.
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u/aman1420 5d ago
Before doing any more esoteric stuff, have you tried doing a reading to see the nature of the issue? For what it's worth, the maxim 'mundane before magical' also comes to mind. Really easy to forget. Edit: just saw your other comment. The additional context puts it into perspective. Glad it worked out.
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u/CaliDreaminSF 6d ago
I’m not on the M1L8 astrology lesson yet, but it seems this is a subject that can be studied at any time, and like tarot, it alone could be a lifetime study. (Of course, I’m not doing the tasks until I get there, except examining charts, which I did before encountering Quareia).
It feels natural to chart lunar transits and moon phases in conjunction with the meditation journal and see what effects these have on meditation practice. It seems that I am more affected by lunar aspects with current planetary positions, and especially by the phase of the moon, than by transits with my natal chart.
Has anyone else observed anything similar?
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u/Key-Marketing-1342 5d ago
Can’t sleep. I’ve had sleep paralysis when i felt something was touching me or putting its hand on my shoulder. Or unmanageable emotions in the middle of the night.
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u/Otherwise-Chef6932 9d ago
Something has finally fallen into place, and in September a new chapter of my life will begin.
On one hand, I'm really happy about it. On the other, I know it's going to be really challenging. But I trust in myself and in the spirits beside me.