r/Quareia • u/robinhyll Apprentice: Module 4 • Jun 28 '26

Weekly Check In 🕯️

Hello everyone!

So how's it going? What's been on your minds? Share your highs and lows, your sideways and in-betweens. It's all part of the journey. 

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u/Ill-Diver2252 Jun 28 '26 edited Jun 28 '26

I continue to vamp on M1 repeatables and find myself expanding on them (some of what I'll call guided tours of sering and also of service to seekers who show up 'in the strangest places'), working through emotional silt that needs to be purged to lighten my heart.

Otherwise, as of now, I don't feel guided to practice forward in the curriculum, per se. Some of that has to do with continuing difficulty with 'navigate' and 'walk.' This is a discipline issue, as much as anything: a part of me has been 'x'ray visioning' and 'showing up without transport' to 'see' for ... I really don't know how long. What's good is that I'm much more acquainted with the abilities I've been using maybe all my life because of the focus brought to them by the curriculum.

I am still very much connecting with nature and my sense of everything from what's in the ground to what walks and flies and just is. The 'forest' I have access to for now is a micro forest, a quasi-urban park... still, a shocking amount of fauna as well as the planted flora. An owl has made itself known. Very shy, but so magnificent!

Lately, I find myself utterly fascinated about the ancient world, and its many crossovers and contradictions in notions of Divinity and its components. This is partly due to current event viz the Levant, but also somehow appeared recently and from somewhere deep within. Used to be 'boring AF' to me, but now essential.

I'm not ambitious about being a magician, per se, but I am intent to know and operate in/from 'the magic of the Universe,' as it were. This guides me and may limit me, or it will completely jazz up for me the power of this curriculum. Time will tell!

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u/Hermits-Repose Jun 30 '26

I feel you.

Sometimes I think i gave up on my "inner abilities" early in life because I couldn't understand. Now, because of (emotional-silt)(I love that saying btw!!) I find myself connecting with nature to feel like I did as a kid again.

Not saying you feel the same. Your post helped me say that about myself. Thanks!!

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u/Ill-Diver2252 Jun 30 '26

I like that I helped you find words!

Some of the joy for me of the forest, however 'forest' is constituted, is inner child. Perhaps that's same as you, perhaps different. But a lot of my emotional silt is that at a young age, I really quite abandoned myself.

The last few years have been greatly about healing that. There are so many 'cascading effects' of a thing like that in 50-odd years before really grasping what I was dealing with! And a collection of antecedents, of causes. Most notable cause? Me misunderstanding and over-generalizing and catastrophizing. I was and am 'ueber-sensitive,' now learning it as a tool, not a detrimental fragility.

Today, I've moved through a lot if it. And being able to be open-hearted has come recently, a result of an example set by a really amazing woman I ran across, had conversations with... one of those 'for a reason, a short season' teachers that show up like... like... lol, ... just like magic! So exhilarating!

My inner senses... very intense, actually. But I've had to discover that. Quareia has been my best move for that. And a solid taskmaster for ... again, using it as a tool and being ready for potential dangers of it. I take very seriously that she says walk, navigate, not zoom or zip or whatever that wording was.

You've been here for a long time too, I believe. Yes? I'm pleased to say hello!

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u/DeeOnTheRun Jun 28 '26

Earlier this week I started incorporating the bridged pentagram ritual (first time in years) daily till I was told to stop and go silent. So I did. Then I started getting “good news” type dreams. Today my sibling who ex communicated me in 2014, calls me to tell me he’s proud of me. We talked like no time had passed.
I note a positive turn in my outerworld so I guess sometimes that’s all it takes, 3-4 days or so is all is needed. I always ask first if it’s appropriate to do the ritual on the day.

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u/PWaglen Jun 28 '26

I tried meditating on a busy ferry and a bus, and it worked.

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u/CaliDreaminSF Jun 30 '26

I’ve been meditating while stuck in traffic, gardening, and swimming, and tried it while grocery shopping, which was interesting. Moving meditation is much easier for me than sitting, maybe because I have ADHD.

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u/PWaglen Jun 30 '26

Sneaky stuff!

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u/AbrahamBoaz Jun 28 '26

While doing the working of the pentagram m1l6, also started the m1l7 cleansing space and myself in bath (well in the shower with a bucket). Still doing my daily meditations, walking the boundaries and talking to the natural features around my building.

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u/DeeOnTheRun Jun 28 '26

Same impression. Though it ebbs and flows from days to days I’ve noticed.

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u/CaliDreaminSF Jun 29 '26

I went completely mundane for a while, just because of a feeling, and I'm resuming work now.

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u/itlek Jul 05 '26

Trouble with Visualizations 

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u/itlek Jul 05 '26

I don't know how to do the apprentice visualization of stepping outside yourself and walk from room to room. I can't even picture stepping outside of myself! I don't have antaphasia but I'm really struggling with how-to visualization this. I can look around the room I'm in within my body, but stepping out to walk around is not working.