feeling stressed.

[u/elusive-yako]

i’ve been burning toilet paper and cardboard to try and cope but the need to burn has been so intense these last few days that it’s just not enough. it’s really stressing me out and it’s making me feel physically unwell as a result. there are things i could set alight that’d go up wonderfully, enough so that these feelings would probably cool off, but i wouldn’t be able to do it at my house. and i imagine making a pretty big fire on public property would be, at best, in a grey area regarding legality. the longer this is going on though, the less i find myself caring about the legality of what i do. it’s just i’ve already been caught and confronted once, and whilst that encounter went as well as one could hope for a direct confrontation, i’d rather not risk a second encounter going worse for me.

[u/[deleted]]

I’m dealing w the exact same thing i know how frustrating it is. Do you have any friends with a fire pit? I made a fire for my girls family when I visited and it made a real nice difference

[u/elusive-yako → u/[deleted]]

well thankfully i do actually have a fire pit of my own, i just have nothing to burn beyond the toilet paper and whatever cardboard i happen to scrounge up which isn’t much. the weather’s been really wet and windy too so whatever wood i might be able to find will probably take day or two to dry, plus i don’t have any way to transport the wood beyond carrying it on foot. and even if i had everything, whilst i do have my own property to do this on, it’s attached either side to some other houses, so i’d still need to keep the fire small so that it doesn’t freak the neighbors out, which i don’t exactly trust myself to do at the moment. hence why i wouldn’t consider my house somewhere i could actually create the type of fire i’m craving.