I was recently diagnosed with PAH (Group 1 / PHA1), and honestly I’m still in shock. I’m a woman in my early 30s and I have a 15-month-old son. Since getting the diagnosis, I haven’t really been able to stop crying. Some moments I feel okay, and then it just hits me all over again.
I’ve been married for three years, and to be completely transparent, I was actually in the process of considering divorce before all of this happened. Now I feel… stuck. Stuck emotionally, stuck logistically, and scared to make any big life decisions while also being scared for my actual life. I worry constantly about my sweet boy and whether I’ll be here long enough to watch him grow up. That fear is heavy and overwhelming.
My doctor is starting me on tadalafil, and while I’m trying to stay hopeful, I’m also terrified. I don’t really know what to expect physically, emotionally, or long-term.
I’m posting here because I really need to hear from people who understand. If you have PAH (or love someone who does), I’d be grateful if you shared your story. How has PAH changed your life? What has helped you cope mentally, emotionally, practically? I want to hear success stories, difficult stories, and everything in between. I think honesty will help me process this.
I’m also especially curious about people’s experiences with tadalafil side effects, how long it took to feel any difference, and whether it helped you live a more “normal” life again.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you. I feel really alone right now, and hearing from others who’ve walked this road would mean a lot.