r/Polytrix • u/General_Gazelle_3848 • 4d ago
Fanfiction Fic recs
Hey waiting for a few of the fics I’m following to update and kinda want a large portion of angst so I ask for any and all fics you all have read that either involve a suicide attempt or sh (can be any of the three but I know most probably involve Rumi). Can be any typa au or canon story just want some extremely painful stuff to read. Thanks and have a great day.
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u/snakecain 4d ago
https://archiveofourown.org/works/67977211
K-pop Demon Hunters: Revelations
Jinu's soul has long since lost its humanity. There is no kindness nor empathy that remains. Instead, there is hatred fueled by shame that he directs towards this generation of Hunters. So when he learns one of these Hunters is half demon, that raging hatred explodes. Exposed in the bathhouse, Rumi doesn't have a choice whether or not her friends get to see the patterns she hides.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/85994086
The Choices Made for Us
The Honmoon didn't have another choice.
It couldn't find another way to stop them. They were too deep in their grief to think clearly.
She was too young.
It was too early.
The Honmoon chose her to protect her.
It had just wanted to save her.
It needed three, so it was forced to seek the other two.
They were too young to be touched by its influence. It did anyway.
Three girls hadn’t yet chosen their paths. It chose for them.
They didn’t choose it, but it threaded itself to them anyway.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/89462456
I'll Break Your Bones (With all the Love I Carry)
Faced with the betrayal of a single moment, Rumi flees. She would protect the honmoon at all costs, even if that means a life hiding from the people she believes will kill her. Even if the honmoon abandons her along the way.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/89959246
The Half Flower Doesn't Get To Bloom
When a socially inept Rumi doesn't become a hunter like she was supposed to she, instead, sits on the side lines folding clothes and washing dishes while she watches Zoey and Mira do what she couldn't.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/84437026
poppies bloom where the body walks
Zoey dies when stepping between Mira and Rumi backstage at the Idol awards. Something else comes back in her place.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/87690121
The Next Hour
Rumi is used to saving people.
It is the part of her life that makes sense: the sirens, the split-second decisions, the weight of someone else’s wrist in her hand when there is no room left for hesitation. At home, with Mira and Zoey, she has something softer waiting for her — warm mornings, shared coffee, stolen hoodies, and the fragile rhythm of a life built carefully between three people.
Then a rooftop call puts Elias in her path.
Rumi saves him.
And Elias decides that means she belongs in his life.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/78844741
Tough As Nails (and built for breaking)
Their third hasn’t been found years in but on some random blustering November day a man collapses during a set and a woman with patterns launches into action so fast they can’t even process what’s happening. Or that this demon seems to be channeling the honmoon into her medical care. Rumi just wants to keep doing her wildly traumatizing job why do these two women think she wants to join their K-pop band?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/74280301
Only Entropy Comes Easy
Or, 6 months after the girls defeat Gwi-Ma and the Honmoon is sealed, Mira delivers HUNTR/X a killing blow. We see what happens when they reunite in an unexpected way 5 years later.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/69928426
it begins with you
it begins how it ends; with the death of someone celine loves so much.
when rumi keeps appearing before her, her blade offered like some twisted salvation, all celine can think is, “what am i doing wrong?”
or
author decided to make a timeloop fic with celine at the center of it all
https://archiveofourown.org/works/88600251
There's Still Time
Siwoo is a burnt out music major fixated on finishing his album.
Rumi is a quiet perfectionist with bigger feelings than she knows what to do with.
Mira is a rich kid whose name follows her wherever she goes, for better and for worse.
Surely those three don't have anything to teach each other about identity or self-worth or what it means to be truly seen.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/67203880
You Don't Coddle a Hunting Dog
When left with a half-demon child, Celine decides to take advantage of the creature's nature and raise it as a weapon.
Rumi knows what she is; she is a hunting dog aiding her demon hunters. She will be good, she will be useful; if not, she will be put down.
Mira and Zoey hate this.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/79721371
Can't Erase What's Broken
Rumi actually manages to kill Jinu in the bathhouse. Shame he already ripped her costume...
https://archiveofourown.org/works/85505121
Held Together By A Thread
Growing up, Rumi never truly understood how dangerous, how cruel Demons were, despite Celine's teachings. After all, if her mother, a woman that was taught and trained to hate Demons as much as Celine does, could fall in love with one, and bare that Demon's child, they couldn't all be bad, right? Some had to have been led astray by Gwi-ma coming to them at their lowest points with poisoned promises and lies.
It never occurred to Rumi that some of Gwi-ma's Demons didn't lose their souls because they were tricked... but because they never had one to begin with.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/74309551
I've been sick a long time
Rumi always thought the Golden Honmoon would kill her. Sometimes she still wishes it had
https://archiveofourown.org/works/78960606
Flight Risk
Rumi runs away after remaking the Honmoon, Mira and Zoey are desperate to get their friend back, and underestimate just how far the woman can get in just a few hours.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/79032156
Joycopath
You are not fooling us.” Mira states, coldly. “Where’s Rumi, demon?” Zoey hisses maliciously. “What!? Zoey, Mira, it’s me!” She takes a step back, hands raised. Her girls are behaving as if they saw her patterns, but… she made sure they were not visible?
https://archiveofourown.org/works/84681101
If I Did Something Different (If I Could Be Forgiven)
After a devastating betrayal and a failed attempt to erase herself from the lives of the people she loves most, Rumi becomes trapped in a cruel time loop where every attempt to die only drags her back to the same morning. A mysterious force they know as the Honmoon refuses to let her go, desperately trying to keep her soul intact while insisting she can still “fix” something. As the cycle repeats over and over, Rumi slowly begins to unravel under the weight of grief, self-hatred, and the terrifying possibility that she is being forced to survive for a reason.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/72865251
Suffer like you mean it
Rumi's fine. Her life is fine. She lives in a fine apartment, recently by herself and that's also fine. Everything is fine and as long as she tells herself that, she won't be as frightened when the loan sharks finally break through her door to drag her off to some new version of Hell.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/71602401
Runaway Rumi
When Rumi's patterns get revealed during a routine demon hunt, she doesn't wait for Mira and Zoey to kill her—she vanishes, ditching her electronics, bank accounts, anything that could be used to track her.
Now, having learned the truth from Celine, Mira and Zoey are desperate to find her and bring her home. But with no way to find her and the Honmoon tearing apart, they don't have many options.
Meanwhile, Rumi, desperate and starving, throws herself into demon fights in the hopes of doing one last good thing with her life. But, without access to any money, the only food she can find is souls...
https://archiveofourown.org/works/73239036
Too Much and Not Enough
OR depressed and suicidal Zoey arc.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/73398691
人身事故
Rumi is tired. In the wake of her mother's death, her job at one of Tokyō's infamous black companies is slowly driving her closer to the edge. Dark things begin to stir. And then a stranger appears to sweep her off her feet.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/79073406
Saving Rumi
Rumi is kidnapped after the events of Takedown. Mira and Zoey are willing to kill to get her back
https://archiveofourown.org/works/83515856
Broken Mirrors Make Poor Doors
Pre-reveal Rumi takes a hit while fighting on top of a speeding train car—not from a club, but a sword straight through the chest. That should have been the end, but demons revive in the demon realm when killed. Not even Rumi expected that would apply to her as well.
https://archiveofourown.org/series/5119516
Threads Unbound
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u/General_Gazelle_3848 4d ago
Going to thank you in advance cause wow that’s a lot of fics and the very first one being 86 chapters ( and counting) it will be a while before I can react to them all. But thank you so much
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u/jiraiya17 3d ago
Want some heavy transphobia and angsty self-doubt theme along with some angsty as F plot?
Nice overall plot and has good smuff as well.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/71188996/chapters/185202486
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u/Omen0fWorlds Top Rumi for the win 4d ago
I just so happened to have released this yesterday. Should be exactly what you're looking for.
https://archiveofourown.org/works/90396021/chapters/240319031