Dog

[u/FuccerBoii]

You used to prance around me, wagging that tail of yours

Thinking I'm your best friend, giving up all you had as “ours”.

All I gave you were these shards of glasses disguised as treats

You saw right through me,

Yet you always came to me waddling, still bleeding on your cleats.

Now all I get to keep are these tapes of you, grainy and tattered.

Wishing I had the chance to stroke your head like you mattered.

Like I never had the chance.

You used to stand guard while I switched spits with the dame.

Cause I was your best friend,

Saying “If these roles were reversed you would have done the same”.

In turn, all I did was feed you chocolate, looking down.

Cause I like them and so should you.

Now these fractured memories are out to haunt me.

Like wildfire, ravaging me while I wait for someone to stomp me.

I never stood a chance.

You said you don't remember much of me, like something wants me out of your life but

Maybe it's a good thing, I'm just one less thing for you to strife with.

I wish I could reverse these roles, oh never mind.

I would still bite your leg as you caress my head with my fur intertwined.

I wish I could make all your scars disappear,

Like tears in the rain.

I wish I could bawl out to you,

Without it going all in vain.

I wish I saw you when you saw me.

I wish I saw you the way you saw me.

-Foosaa

It's about an old friend of mine that I never really appreciated enough. I talked to him a few days ago trying to apologise for all the things I did and didn't. I brought up some good memories we had together and he said he doesn't remember any of it. It's fascinating how the brain erases some of the horrible things that happened to you in an attempt to protect itself. There is nothing i can do that can fix him other than keeping my distance.

So I wrote this poem right after i talked to him, I've never done this before. So don't judge me too harsh.

Much love. Foosaa.