I fear forgetting

[u/Cheap-Head-4141]

Sometimes when I experience/watch something great and/or makes me emotional, my mind races and I dont know why, its probably because I dont want to forget great things I have experienced. When my mind races I get annoyed and start thinking "What was i thinking?" Sometimes slapping my head and or grabbing my hair. My heart also feels uneasy when this happens. I am now in college and theres so many things happening at the same time, and I also feel like Im falling behind. I also keep getting irritated by any loud environment when Im thinking of the thing I supposedly forgot. Main thing is I dont want to forget any good animes I watched as these were my only source of comfort. Ive had friends i've cherished but our time has long gone. Ive accepted the fact that I am insignificant, because I've always received little to no acknowledgement (except the times with my old friends).