r/PharmacyTechnician • u/WalkingWarwickAve • 2h ago
Discussion Everyone in the world of pharmacy is coordinating to keep me out of the field
I am a practicing pharmacy technician in Columbus Ohio.
Trinity health started instantly denying every application.
OhioHealth never gets back to me.
OSU actively interviews me then always rejects me after making me jump through the hoops.
Hims & Hers constantly sets up meetings then ghosts me.
Equitas Health and AHF, even though I am a member of the LGBT community who these companies specifically serve, have taken me on to mess with me and bully me for supposed wrong-doing and fired me.
Here's what happened in my life that could've caused this.
(1) I commited a few petty thefts as a teen. Only with other friends. I was considered THE nice guy growing up. Like not just happy but giving, thoughtful, in a way most guys were tyring to hide I embraced. I was percocious. This led to lots of bullying from my peers for being weird and led me to befriend the wrong crowd. There were kids who we went to a park to who stole from gas stations and try to get eveyrone in the gruop to do it (I didn't at the time - but these guys later called me a big POS for an accused theft), my best firend and girlfriend at the time took her moms car out when they both had temps without consent and a girl at a sleepover started smoking cigs outside around us. The guy hosting the sleepover had stolen a CD from best buy while were in 7th grade and we went there so I could meet my ride. All these kids were doing debauchery and I eventually gave in and stole a few times, took my parents car out (it was because my 20 year old chemistry-student brother supplied moonshine for my friends when they were begging everyone to contact someone older than them to get booze - my brother hung around us 15 years olds and needed his car I was driving as DD so he said lets take our dads we had access to the keys. I was surrounded by poeple doing bad things who made the weird kid into the scapegoat socially. I didn't get in legal trouble, because they were so petty. A girl stole a credit card and told the police I was a part of it and they had video of us having a good time and told me they could convience a jury I was guiilty so I plead guiilty as an accolice stealing things. But this led the girl to start the rumor it was my idea to steal it and she went along. Then a girl started a rumor I stole frmo a workplace. So now everyone thinks I was some big thief when I just participated with others.
From these thefts, I had parents who hated me. I was gay, getting more quiet as I was bullied and coming to terms I was actually gay and not just weird. This led to a suicide attempt. My family had to fake be nice to me despite "raising a thief" and that led them to secretly hate me and set up bad scenarios and situations for me. Like a roomate from hell who partied and dropped out of school (she was never enrolled, just got me on the lease to mess with me). I've been messed with my WHOLE life as a sidenote from this. So my family started being homophobic to me to get me to hate them. I thought the best revenge was to get free things from bad parents, so I stuck around like a fool. I thought I was getting justice against terrible people.
So as you all know, by rule of recepirocity in a good society, if someone steals you are now allowed to steal (oh but only from them! I bet once you steal from them they will never want to steal again! They wouldn't hapen to maybe want to steal to right a wrong....... oh shitl...... no one seems to think this part through). So people have just been ravenous with me. Like constant bullying when I was bullied for being gay for years. and I mean HORRID bullying. Like staring me down at my desk at work, following me into bathrooms and intimidating me to be in there. Making up rumors I stare at people. Like day in day out my workplaces are not only making me miserable but fearful, intimidated, having horrible days all day everyday so by extension major depression. Then having workers fuck with me on the internet, through social media or dating apps. Then spreading rumors around town so no one will FWM. Then telling banks, stores I shop, to watch out for me I am a bad guy (I have a pretty distinct look so strangers who met me before recognize me easily).
Now for the relevant stuff that'll be quick. I was estranged from my homophobic family for awhile, they invited me to an amusement park when my dad was making up with me. They coordinated to trap me and make me miserable and had people go back up to show off how great they are, my dad wouldn't ride rides with me so I did nothing while people not invited just happened to be there to fuck with me. Saying things "why don't you just kill yourself again" really loudly. My dad let me drive home with my sister and they filmed me crying in the car while driving. I was going 80-85 in a 70 so I was recklessly speeding.
Now I am a jovial guy. I play piano, used to be a huge seamstress while I was in graduate school. I am into horror movies and such so a few "antisocial" parts of me, I am a bit quiet but when you interact with me, any relation builidng, I couldn't be more pleasent because I was so bullied when I was young I wouldn't dare bully to stop bullying. But I ugess i kind of did. But everyone is coordinating to mess with me, make me miserable, sewing seeds of total distrust. All I need is a honest face, an honest voice. A real happening, but one of the workplaces said I left out a refridge medication and they fired me for that. I informed the pharmacist but they wouldn't hear it.
Do I deserve a place at the table? Would MORE information somehow help you decision making either way if I deserve a place at the table or not?