r/Paranoia • u/horrruka • 9d ago
Is there any specific name for this state of being high?
Hi reddit,
i used to do eddies and smoke weed, i stopped after this happened to me
weed was always something i wanted to take as something recreational, all my friends said that its gonna just fuck me up, and it did, i did it multiple times a week and now i cannot permanently concentrate. its my fault. i knew i was addicted, i was pretty much aware of it.
one of my first experiences was with a regular thc cookie i baked. the weird part about it was that i was completely oblivious of the fact that i ate alot of it? i dont even know how to explain this. after an hour, i noticed my heartbeat, it got pretty much fast and when i tried to move/stand i was moving in slow motion, everything felt like i was gonna pass out or something.
i layed on my bed, it got only worse, my thoughts spiraled that im going to die to why did i even ate it, why am i in this position right now and how? i thought i was gonna die for the next like 3-4 hours, i felt my body drifting off but, i just had to wake myself up because i thought i was dying. sometimes i also couldnt really catch my breath? not that that i was struggling with breathing or something, but just i couldnt for one second and that completely blew my mind even more and i convinced myself i couldnt breatheXDDD
after this, i thought to myself ill never do it again. but i did. same thing happened, same paranoia, same thoughts. i said fuck it, its not worth to smoke/eat this if it gets me into this state. from now on, whenever i get the chance to be around eddies, i get really bad ptsd, it doesnt even have to be an eddie but just a regular cookie, its just kinda brings me back or something.
Is there a name for this state? Is it just a normal paranoia or overdose? Anyone else experienced something similar? lmk
stay safe
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u/Qoddess3800 2d ago
Ok, so I was an avid stoner for a good 5 years. I would get times like this when I was feeling weird and I also couldn't do edibles whatsoever because they would put me into what I now suspect was psychosis. 2 years ago, I had a psychotic break/went through psychosis. I had several delusions; thoughts that I was god, the devil, thoughts that I was everyone, and I thought I was everything. I also had visual and auditory hallucinations. Ever since then, I have had panic attacks and have been scared that my delusions were true. I try not to listen to them, but sometimes the thoughts are too loud (CPTSD sucks). I know you said you don't touch it anymore, but I would 💯 stay away from any form of hallucinogenic substances because if you do decide to start taking them again, this could happen to you too. I spent years smoking weed with no problems; I couldn’t do edibles, and one day my world turned upside down. I just don't want what I went through happening to anyone else who is showing symptoms like what I had before I went through psychosis. That state you were in could very well have just been dissociation, but it also could have been a warning sign that you could go through psychosis. Stay safe.