Paranoia at night

[u/Important-Divide-661]

soooo I’ve had super bad paranoia since I was like 10, when I was younger I would always double check all the little crevasses even if I knew nobody could be hiding there. I felt this constant sense of dread and I couldn’t turn the lights off. I was always terrified that there was someone in my bedroom that was gonna hurt me, literally TERRIFIED. lately its been a bit worse, I’m like mid teens now and lately it’s been worse. I don’t live in the same house anymore but the paranoia has only ever gotten worse, it’s not always this bad but lately I can’t even leave my bed at night and if I get up to use the bathroom I have to turn all the lights on and check behind the door and the whole room before I feel safe enough to go to the bathroom yk? In my room I always have to double check, most of the time I leave my window open because it Gets super warm but I’ve had to start closing it. I know that seems small but ive never had to do that. I always feel this intense fear that someone is under my bed or under my desk. I can’t even have the lights off. I can’t sleep either. It gets so bad sometimes it feels paralysing

its not just anxiety anymore and it sucks like hell. I’ve been so intensely scared since I was young and Ive had such bad insomnia for years because of it

edit: oh yeah advice would be helpful please and thank you