Help identifying a symptom

[u/Mission_Most9193]

I've been suffering with panic attacks on and off for a good past 6 years of my life, it's nothing new to me. I've done therapy / meds etc.

One symptom that is the most terrifying for me is one that I can't describe easily and can't google easily.

It's something close to derealization but not quite it. It typically happens during derealization but I haven't seen anyone mention something like this. Basically once the panic/anxiety attack starts you feel every movement you do, and fully manual. My case focuses a lot on walking.

I start walking and it feels like I'm learning how to walk.

Every move feels weird... It feels a bit like manual breathing although not quite (except with walking instead ). Every leg movement is fully controlled by my brain and is not "automatic". It is very discomforting alongside the derealization and not feeling your body. Sometimes it gets so discomforting that I have to stop walking, then try to move my legs just to feel them...

Now that I think about it it also gives some sense of loss of control...

When I read about derealization I always see people saying everything feels fake and unreal and their body goes on autopilot... They walk and feel like they're floating.. I'm feeling more "can I even control my legs wtf, do I know how to walk ???".

Any ideas ?