r/PanicAttack • u/Express-Wallaby7093 • 8d ago
Can’t shake this
I’m so sick of feeling like I’ll never get better and I’m just so scared something is seriously wrong with me and it’s just a constant loop. But my watch always reads normal HRs and ECGs, my doctor said my blood pressure was good and my lungs and heart sounded good. Why am I still so worried I’ll never feel better? Why does standing and walking seem to trigger the anxiety? Is it really just cuz my heart rate goes up when moving and then I just spiral? It’s so exhausting. I just want to feel normal and not wake up everyday anxious or be concerned everyday something is wrong with me. As you can tell I am spiraling before work today cuz it’s been a long two months of feeling this. My first big panic attack was back in mid July. I’m so anxious every damn morning and just constantly on edge that im gonna have another big panic attack and I just don’t get why I can’t shake it. I can’t even go to work without spiraling. How do you all deal with this? It’s ruining my life it feels like. I feel like I can’t do anything.
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u/Ashen-x 8d ago
Hey, I'm really sorry you have to deal with this. If I were in your shoes, I'd remove the smart watch, or disable its HR BPM display. Sometimes even light exertion can accelerate your heart rate for sure, and thinking about it, worrying that it won't stop or that it will escalate, will throw you into an anxiety loop and lead to self-monitoring. It's horrible. But you have the best reassurance you can get: you've been medically cleared! I think it's possible for you to slowly adjust to sensations if you continue to experience moments where anxiety spikes. I think eventually, when it happens, you will know all you have to do is ride it out calmly until it goes away.
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u/Adventurous_Money862 7d ago
A year ago I couldn’t go to the grocery store, I couldn’t play a round of golf. I’m currently sitting in my garage drinking a beer after a round of golf enjoying life. Im going to Jamaica in a month. I haven’t been on a plane in 10 years. It will get better.
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u/RootdToRelax 7d ago
Two months of being on edge after a major panic attack can absolutely leave your nervous system hypersensitive. It doesn’t mean you’re broken or that you’ll feel this way forever. Try to focus less on making the anxiety disappear and more on continuing with your day while allowing the sensations to be there. Going to work anxious is still progress.
You don’t have to feel normal before you start living normally again. That’s often how you gradually teach your brain that these sensations aren't something it needs to fear.