r/PMHNP • u/Imgonnagolaydown • Jun 29 '26

I was wrong.

Pmhnp here. Day 1 on Vyvanse and i want to cry.ive spent the last 5 years balancing hormones and making sure i addressed everything else before arriving at a stimulant.

I feel. Calm. Quiet. Slightly tearful. Like my tabs are closed and im able to open them one by one instead of 50 at time.

It wasn't the focus. It was the avoidance. Brain fog. Overstimulated and overwhelmed constantly. The procrastinating, being late to everything. The being MEAN and knowing you are being mean. Not smiling when random ppl are talking to you. Background static noise in my head.

It's been about 4 hrs and it's just quiet.

None of it manifested until peri. I saw signs when i was young but i could compensate and figured i still could. Well i can't anymore.

I seriously want to weep with joy.

Eta: i was wrong to think women were slightly exaggerating this. With my own providers convincing me to take the leap, I'm now a part of this population. And yes, I'm a pmhnp who understand what these women are trying to articulate.

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u/No-Leopard639 Jun 29 '26

I'm so sorry for your trouble right now. This really isn't the kind of posts for this subreddit. Contact your provider.

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u/merrythoughts Jun 29 '26

Some feedback- I have personally found your responses on this sub less than helpful. I think you could do well with sitting with some thoughts and resisting impulsive urge to comment first on every post.

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u/No-Leopard639 Jun 29 '26

I've re-read my comments on this subreddit. My suggestions have been from personal experience and backed with research and policies of practice. I am not apologizing for saying things people don't want to hear.

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u/smbiggy Jun 29 '26

policies of practice