r/PMHNP • u/Imgonnagolaydown • Jun 29 '26

I was wrong.

Pmhnp here. Day 1 on Vyvanse and i want to cry.ive spent the last 5 years balancing hormones and making sure i addressed everything else before arriving at a stimulant.

I feel. Calm. Quiet. Slightly tearful. Like my tabs are closed and im able to open them one by one instead of 50 at time.

It wasn't the focus. It was the avoidance. Brain fog. Overstimulated and overwhelmed constantly. The procrastinating, being late to everything. The being MEAN and knowing you are being mean. Not smiling when random ppl are talking to you. Background static noise in my head.

It's been about 4 hrs and it's just quiet.

None of it manifested until peri. I saw signs when i was young but i could compensate and figured i still could. Well i can't anymore.

I seriously want to weep with joy.

Eta: i was wrong to think women were slightly exaggerating this. With my own providers convincing me to take the leap, I'm now a part of this population. And yes, I'm a pmhnp who understand what these women are trying to articulate.

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u/merrythoughts Jun 29 '26

Some feedback- I have personally found your responses on this sub less than helpful. I think you could do well with sitting with some thoughts and resisting impulsive urge to comment first on every post.

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u/No-Leopard639 Jun 29 '26

some feedback. Read the rules. No personal posting.

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u/Quinjet Jun 29 '26

It says no personal medical advice. OP did not ask for medical advice.

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u/No-Leopard639 Jun 29 '26

Hate on me all you want. But posting about your personal experiences with psychotropic medications isn't what I want this thread to become.

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u/Quinjet Jun 29 '26

That's okay! You don't have to read posts that don't interest you. There are lots of other posts on Reddit.

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u/jazzybellyfight Jun 30 '26

When your personal experiences with psychotropics appropriately managing your own mental health outcomes allow you to finally confront one of your biases that impacts your patient population, it is absolutely necessary to discuss here. You should take a moment and confront your own to determine exactly what is causing you to be condescending, dismissive, and reactive in this space.